lubed up the mgx with k-y again and had another session--still progressing, but only slowly--had the pulses in my ass and some other feelings in lower abdomen--like the abdominal quaking cause i believe it signifies that some rewiring is taking place and will bear fruit in the future--maybe i'm still too directional and goal oriented and not laid back, even though i relax as much as i can--one thing different was that i took some contractions very hard and held...

tried the mgx like it was yesterday--not too much going on--had the ass pulses like yesterday but this time with the mgx--i think that if i could maintain the pulses for a considerable length of time it would lead to some pleasure--the pulses are surely more enjoyable than the buzzing...

started with the modified mgx--still slow going--brought the p-tab contact point a little farther away from the stem--still where i was a week or so ago--some ass buzzing and a few dives in the ass tried the helix, unmodified, with a little more success in that i got what i call ass pulses instead of the buzzing--the pulses are more enjoyable but harder for me to maintain--had very little considering the amount of time i used...

well, i think part of my problem the last two days was that i was slightly constipated--today was a bit better after some bms, but not entirely satisfying--there is very little movement of my mgx--i think i will have to continue moving the contact point on the p-tab until i get constant, aggressive contact on my sweet spot--i know it's right when i get a constant buzzing in my prostate--this seems to be a critical point for me--when the contact...

well, made the tab shorter and lower but it didn't change the results much--still only minimal feelings generated which don't lead anywhere-tried complete relaxation, holding slight and heavy contractions, breathing, different positions and other stuff--not advancing so far--will try to lay off tomorrow and start again the day after...

well i don't seem to be progressing after adding hot glue to the tab of my mgx--i think i overdid it and added way more than i had with the candle--the contact spot is now higher and closer to my balls--will cut it back and try it that way tomorrow...

it seems that almost every time i lie down on my back now my prostate and/or anus demands my attention--it's as if they want an aneros session and are letting me know about it--especially when i lie on my back before sleep and breath deeply to get my nose/sinuses clear so i don't have to breath through my mouth, does it get the contractions going--great to know i'm rewiring my body but it sure makes it tough to get to...

tried my modified mgx again today and it still gets the heart rate and buzz going right away--haven't been able to keep the good feelings generated long enough to string anything out, no matter how much i try to relax--but i have noticed that whenever anything happens it always gets better or remains longer if i can relax my legs more than when it starts--i guess that i should start out with the contraction a bit higher so i will...

played with moving the p-tab to hit the sweet spot--thought it was up higher towards my balls where the tab couldn't reach, but before i went in that direction i tried the direction that everyone else has gone in and it was the right direction after all--added candle wax to the tab on the stem side and inserted it for a trial--wow--did it ever improve things!--heart began racing immediately and everything progressed at a faster clip then ever before--removed the...

well, i guess it's not so easy!--today's sessions, while not totally useless, were not an advance over yesterday's success--i had a few things to encourage me but not the advancement from yesterday's starting point--seems like i've taken a slight step backward--but i do think that my p-tab does not go far enough toward my balls to really hit my sweet spot--will seriously think about stretching it if it's not working where it is--there are plenty of threads about moving it...