shockedwaves's Journal
Day 1 of 5th attempt
Had a slow long, but not very intense ejaculation yesterday after 13 days. It just drippled out of me with not much force, weak contractions. I was trying to relax instead of tense up to stop the ejaculation. Anyways - still feeling very different today than the other failed attempts. After the other failed attempts,…
Day 13 – last day of 4th Attempt. Day 0 of 5th attempt
Was having a good session with my eupho syn and Venus 2000 masturbator all setup. Was soft most of the session, but getting close quite quickly. Was probably hovering too close to the point of no return for too long. Eventually, when I turned the masturbator off (I turn it off and on every few…
Day 11 of 4th attempt
Have felt pretty consistent for the last few days. Good mood, a little bit more outgoing, less anxious. Haven't generally felt horny at all this week, except if I am intentionally trying to get horny. For example, wasn't really in the mood for a session last night but had some time to myself in the…
Day 7 of 4th attempt
The last few days, and really for most of this 4th attempt, I've felt pretty calm energy and grounded. Had a really good session yesterday afternoon that lasted about 2 hours, a-less. At the start was maybe just a bit too agressive because I was reaching the point of no return pretty quickly and needing…
Day 4 of 4th attempt
At day 4 - I've had really calm energy during the day, not feeling all that sexual. But when I've been having sessions/sex in the evening last two days they went really really well. Had lots of control and lots of orgasms, and very easily was able to stay away from the point of no…
Day 1 of 4th attempt
I feel more tired today and just less horny. When I focus down mentally to what my cock feels like, it just doesn't feel as sensitive or good as it did before I failed and broke my 16 day no ejaculating streak last night. Still woke up horny though and jerked off for about an…
Day 16 – end of 3rd attempt
Last few days was feeling really good. Great mood, good energy, not sexually frustrated. Felt excited about sex a lot during the day, looking forward to sessions that would be coming up. Also during sessions last few days felt like I had a lot more control and easy to know where to stop stimulation to…
Day 12 of 3rd attempt
No significant changes to the way I feel over the last couple days, so just some observations of things I notice. Still have a really hard time getting sex off my mind, been like that a few days. When I start fantasizing about something in my head, I get really excited and get almost like…
Day 11 of 3rd attempt
Woke up this morning and feel pretty confident, bit more energetic. Easily turned on, was hard to ignore my morning erection - but I did and got myself to the gym and work. Last night was having a session with Aneros Eupho, Pro Jr, and Pro Ice (in that order). I think I was just…
Day 10 of 3rd attempt
It's probably been a few years since I went this long without ejaculating, and the first time able to have MMO sessions I've not ejaculated this long (was re wired about 1.5 years ago). Noticed yesterday that I generally just felt like I was in a better mood, and a little bit more energetic during…