smudgefish's Journal
Tantric sex
I’m a bit disillusioned with orgasming using the aneros method. I have had some good success but it seems to take hours of effort to get any returns at the moment, probably just me. I have been meaning to read about tantric sex for a while and found some good information this morning; it’s similar…
Meditation
I have had some amazing success with higher levels of orgasm this week and sort of forgotten about my meditation. I am quite exhausted form work and staying up late trying to orgasm, and I keep waking up early in fact I have been doing that since my adventure began. I wake with butterflies of…
Getting better
Tw nights ago I had my first super-O for a while. The night after I was too tired and got nowhere so gave up. Last night it took a while but once I broke throught into an orgasm I knew it was going to be good again. I was still very tired from lack of…
Good and bad
Well, yesterday I made some real progress. I have learnt that I need to relax more and stop chasing an orgasm. I managed to get to some heights of pleasure using this mindset. In the morning I relaxed so much I fell asleep and was woken immediately with a big headrush of excitement much like…
Long way to go
An update on where I am. I seem to be having a very different journey to others. It hasn't been easy. Emotions all over the place and it has ended up being largely a spiritual journey. When I first started I expected that by now I would be reaching the heights of pleasure I read…
Weird
Things get weirder and weirder, in a nice way. My last 4 orgasms have been interesting. They haven't lasted long. Each time I start to orgasm I feel my pleasure ramping up rapidly but I don't have time to enjoy it much because I feel something building that I have to concentrate on. It's a…
Kundalini stuff
I think I am feeling more changes that are part of my awakening. I'm confused and feeling very low. I have had a few ups and downs but in general felt that I was getting somewhere. Yesterday I started to feel very low indeed and feel as if I have lost something. I can't really…
Another super-O
I wasn't expecting much last night but got the best super-O in weeks that I could actually enjoy without interruption for a change. At first I thought it was going to be dud session. No sensations at all for the first 5-10 minutes and I almost gave up. The it started to build, very slowly.…
Sleep paralysis, not enough orgasms
Last night was a downer. I was good and did as I was told. No orgasm. At 1 am I had a very scary sleep paralysis. I felt like my arm had become a snake. Bit weird. Still looking after a sick child whilst wife goes out for the day again. I manage 20 minutes…
Amazed, and disappointed
Last night I had an hour and a half of mind blowing orgasms. I'm feeling totally energised, turned on and ready for more. My wife is going out all day, my children should be at school and I was looking forward to spending a day on my own for the first time in months. My…