DarkEngine's Journal
Abstaining session
Been over a week since the 6th May, my blog last entry. I talked about having a break to build excitement — and last night's session made a point of that. Over this week I abstained from anything sexual, and looking at anything sexual for that matter. No porn, fetishes, masturbating, touching, none of that.…
The key is 'excitement'
)NOTE: This only really applies to experienced users - for those starting off, your perspective may be different( New entry is certainly a random occurrence, given how dead on its feet my blog is…! My usage on the device is sparse these days - and that's nice. Recently I've set myself this challenge of not…
Life in the Endgame
That's that, I suppose. I've come as far as I'll get. Super-O's don't seem all that amazing to me, but I'm still holding onto the possibility that these amazing orgies haven't truly occurred yet. Perhaps I haven't fully let myself go in sessions. It's been mentioned before, but my 'depression' doesn't help with the Aneros,…
Super-O: Kind of, sort of, maybe?
TL;DR: * Continuos, building orgasm * Arching back up non-stop * Moaning is genuine now, and not 'acting' * Rectal muscles & prostate pulsate upon possible orgasm - similar to Super-T * First wet-dream * Similar orgasm outside of sessions * Still picky/reluctant to actually use Aneros The decision was made: the next time I…
Chemistry of the Mind
TL;DR: * Sensations specific to anus within first minute of insertion * Most sensations weren't Aneros exclusive until later * Faint Out-of-Body moment early in session * Involuntary Tug-of-War generated pleasure in anus/PC muscles * Frequent practice still needed on sensing Aneros That Aneros itch. I don't know about you, but it's always a source…
Should Really Take a Break
Nothing says Super-O desperation like three devices in one session! I'm really kind of fed up right now, and it's effecting my sessions and overall attitude towards Aneros. Graduated from university this summer and I'm in that sickening, sludgy void of being unemployed. Want to be out of it as soon as I can. And…
Dirty talking helped!?
TL;DR: * Session had vague sensations but wasn't going anywhere * Semi-forced anal contractions 2 hours in began creating sensations * When a lot of arousal built up, began dirty talk began happening in my mind * Out of body experience occurred when dirty talk kept going * Sweet vibes in abdomen and anus afterwards…
2nd stage of prostate awakening…?
TL;DR: * Tingles of pleasure in anus for first time. * Genuinely felt the Aneros. * Prostate engorging in sensation. * Strong p-waves. * Refractory period: sad, tense and desperate. Maybe part of the fun in these sessions is never quite knowing what to expect? I anticipated a mediocre time, but it was quite an…
Duds
Yup, I thought so. So my previous entry praised and raved over the great new experiences from Monday night. Turns out they weren't discoveries with a permanent effect. I tried the MGX again tonight primarily to see if what I had uncovered in the previous session can happen again - either voluntarily or involuntarily. Nope.…
Odd new involuntary massaging
TL;DR: * Sensations flow naturally - doing nothing or contracting. * Pleasure builds up quite easily now. * First time arousal from anal contracting. * Built up pleasure quickly, and felt wormy involuntary contractions. I thought I hit the peak of my Aneros journey for a month or two, assuming that the reality should of…