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smudgefish Blocked again?
I had sex with my wife for the first time in months last night. My erection was instant and harder than I remember it ever being even when I was a teenager, and when I came it was stronger than previously, she even commented on how strong it felt. I…
Anal Orgasm
Friday night after an early dinner J went to my daughter’s house about an hour away to go to a late movie near her house and stay overnight. It’s been nice that the two of them have become movie buddies; they go to chic flicks on a regular basis. I…
Long week
I feel as if I am finally starting to integrate my new found ability with normal life. Today is the first day that I haven't been constantly thinking about my next super-O and worrying whether it is going to happen. After a long week and long hours at work I…
PSLabs No sleep
I started a session just before going to bed. This never works out for me. I drift off to sleep before anything gets started. It worked out this time, though. Fuck me running, did it work out. I felt a slow pulsing at my anus that maintained a persistent stimulation,…
Back on track
I had promised myself that I was taking a rest for a day yesterday, but I'm not very strong willed and thought that I would just have a quick try last night, A-less as usual. I'm very glad that I did. it wasn't the fastest onset ever but considering how…
Exhausted
It's been a real emotional rollercoaster in the last week since my breakthrough. Exhilarated one minute after after a mind blowing super-O, totally despondent when it just wasn't working. I don't think I have experienced such a range of emotions since my first serious relationship in my early 20's. I…
Still not working
I have been doing a lot of thinking having had no breakthrough yesterday. I tried plenty of times to orgasm but nothing happened, I even slept with the aneros in and felt good. There was one orgasm type event that was nice, but totally pleasure free )I have had one…
BigOluver 21 day challenge
So i like to make my journey with aneros and prostate play interesting anyway i can. I have 4 models a fleshlight and so many cock rings and ball stretchers for penty of gooning and edging. But I wanted to do a more in depth to my sexual pique an…
Fantasy and Super O
Anyone who reads whatever I have written over the years or who knows me here knows the profound impact that rewiring has had on me. I am a changed man. I think of myself as hypersexual and serenely sensual. Erotic thoughts are part of my daily life; eroticism is always…
Now it's not working
I though I had got this all worked out yesterday. My expectations were high that I could now orgasm at will and I expected to be able to have another mind blowing experience tonight. I can get to the edge of orgasm easily now but just cannot cross over, it's…