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smudgefish so close…..
Last night I felt like trying again. It felt as if something had changed. I had identified guilt as a possible cause of my blockage and was determined that I needed to enjoy myself and not care what anyone else thought, so even though I…
Not sure what to call this one
This now feels slightly out of place in a blog about using the aneros, but the journey started when I opened that box, and it has taken me in a very unexpected direction. I have read about spiritual awakening and I can recognise a lot…
Jeff_C The beginning
So the jouney of a thousand miles begins with single step. Today I began my jouney with a good session.
More thoughts
I’m going to analyse again as I'm still blocked. This experience has touched me deeply. I feel as if I have triggered something very profound. I was sent to boarding school at 13 and bullied badly, I was made to feel worthless and had no…
Unique Sensations
I was born and raised in New York City. At 9 years old I learned how to use the city bus system; at 10 I learned how to ride the subway and figure out where it took me. From that point on the greatest city…
DarkEngine Concentration & Abstaining
I should probably mention again that my blog only really receives entries on new developments. Given that I'm somewhat at the end-point of my journey, it's less and less apparent that new sensations and heights come up. But hey! Great sessions nonetheless. Otherwise there has…
Still blocked
Things got worse. Its been several days now since I have been able to 'cross over' into an orgasm. I can still bring on good feelings but I'm getting less and less inclined to even try now because it's so disappointing and I expect failure.…
Blocked again?
I had sex with my wife for the first time in months last night. My erection was instant and harder than I remember it ever being even when I was a teenager, and when I came it was stronger than previously, she even commented on…
Anal Orgasm
Friday night after an early dinner J went to my daughter’s house about an hour away to go to a late movie near her house and stay overnight. It’s been nice that the two of them have become movie buddies; they go to chic flicks…
Long week
I feel as if I am finally starting to integrate my new found ability with normal life. Today is the first day that I haven't been constantly thinking about my next super-O and worrying whether it is going to happen. After a long week and…