Yesterday was a bit mind blowing. I think it was, after my wedding day, and the day each of my children was born, the best day of my life. I feel like a different person today, much more patient and calm. Today feels very calm, I even feel a bit low, but it see it as another stage in the process that I am going through and I feel it rather than try to understand it. I found memories of being some...
Woke early and had a good orgasm. I'm sure it was going to be a big one, but my wife suddenly woke up as I was going into it and got out of bed, which slightly threw me and I lost concentration but it was still good. I was sitting listening to some music before having a shower, I find Angels and Airwaves )probably not everyone's cup of tea( very uplifting and quite 'spiritual'. I listened to one of my favourite...
I'm meditating regularly. Yesterday I was circulating energy into my sacrum and up my spine, I suddenly got an immense surge in my lower back during the day, I thought at last the real Kundalini is on its way, and was able to meditate immediately and I concentrated on the feeling. It became very powerful but nothing broke through. I really think that I have to be careful. My theory is that my original experience was forced in that I pushed...
Well, I can now get into an orgasm again at will. I seem to be getting closer to having a SuperO again, it felt as if I was almost having one last time but I still don't think it really was. I can't stop lying there analysing as I orgasm so once I stop doing that it will probably happen. All the Kundalini awakening stuff seems to have stopped now and I feel rather back to normal. I'm not sure if...
Despite almost being at the point of falling asleep standing up last night I felt turned on and had to try to get a quick orgasm before I went to sleep. I did quite quickly slip into an Aless orgasm. It was a very subdued affair, my frazzled brain was not able to concentrate on keeping it going and it felt a bit like a 'quickie' very nice in its own way, and it ticked a box. I am still...
I'm managing to get to orgasm again easily now. I had forgotten how intense a super-O was until tonight although I still didn't actually have one I was on the verge of it for ages - it was painful feeling the full intensity of one just about to happen, it reminded me of how good they were, but it just didn't quite get there. Whilst I would have loved to feel it burst out and I'm sad that it didn't, I...
Last night was unbelievable! I felt so stressed that the moment I got the opportunity I meditated and sank into a deep meditative state nothing like I have achieved before. I added some Mula Bandha and felt an immediate intense feeling of being on the edge of orgasm. My wife came to bed and I was feeling electric, and sank very quickly into a lovely Aless orgasm that lasted about 20 minutes, again very controlled and maybe not hitting any...
Yesterday was a very intense day. My first dry orgasm for ages, a state of ecstacy during the day and almost a full Kundalini experience out of nowhere. Then it went quiet. I felt very stressed as if all my progress over the last week was for nothing. My children were misbehaving, one developed a fever. I tried for another orgasm last night but couldn't relax into it. My wife was very stressed and I could feel it and that didn't...
Last night I had my first proper dry orgasm for over a week! Emotionally it was the most satisfying I have ever had and I felt euphoric I couldn't do anything but lie and think 'wow' when it finally settled down. I just lay there the whole time thinking 'thank you, thank you' and enjoyed the wonderful sensations take hold of me again. Whether it was a super-O I don't care it was just beautiful whatever it was. I'm not going...
I had several very intense sessions yesterday. Each one seems to be getting closer. Yesterday evening I had some very intense feelings start out of the blue whilst at the computer and they became unbearably good lasting for ages. I actually felt as if it was really going to happen again, I felt the waves just starting to spread but still it just didn't set in and eventually I had to stop. I'm wondering if having a break would be good,...