I had several very intense sessions yesterday. Each one seems to be getting closer. Yesterday evening I had some very intense feelings start out of the blue whilst at the computer and they became unbearably good lasting for ages. I actually felt as if it was really going to happen again, I felt the waves just starting to spread but still it just didn't set in and eventually I had to stop. I'm wondering if having a break would be good,...

I woke up this morning and noticed that I was abdominal breathing whereas normally I have a very dysfunctional upper chest breathing pattern. I felt quite emotional as if it’s a sign that something is changing. Everything is starting to make some sort of sense now. I think that I had a form of Kundalini experience when I had my super-super-O. It was no different to what many people have described experiencing on the forum, but for me it was more...

Last night I felt like trying again. It felt as if something had changed. I had identified guilt as a possible cause of my blockage and was determined that I needed to enjoy myself and not care what anyone else thought, so even though I didn’t know if my wife was asleep I started to build the feelings and sink into an orgasm. I didn’t have an orgasm despite an hour trying with and without the aneros. It did feel good,...

This now feels slightly out of place in a blog about using the aneros, but the journey started when I opened that box, and it has taken me in a very unexpected direction. I have read about spiritual awakening and I can recognise a lot of it happening in myself. I am letting it happen to me. Emotions and thoughts keep washing over me. I imagined myself telling my father that I loved him )it's complex( and broke down in tears...

I’m going to analyse again as I'm still blocked. This experience has touched me deeply. I feel as if I have triggered something very profound. I was sent to boarding school at 13 and bullied badly, I was made to feel worthless and had no friends for years. I have felt very angry with parents for letting this happen to me ever since, and never resolved that feeling. I remain as angry with them now as I was 30 years ago. I coped...

Things got worse. Its been several days now since I have been able to 'cross over' into an orgasm. I can still bring on good feelings but I'm getting less and less inclined to even try now because it's so disappointing and I expect failure. Today I have only tried a couple of times. I have posted on the forum and had some reassuring comments but it's my problem and no-one can really help. I have been very low about this. The...

I had sex with my wife for the first time in months last night. My erection was instant and harder than I remember it ever being even when I was a teenager, and when I came it was stronger than previously, she even commented on how strong it felt. I haven't managed to have a prostate orgasm for a few days now. I have sort of lost interest a little bit in a good way )have to get on with normal...

I feel as if I am finally starting to integrate my new found ability with normal life. Today is the first day that I haven't been constantly thinking about my next super-O and worrying whether it is going to happen. After a long week and long hours at work I am as usual very tired. I really think that I will just sleep tonight so it will be first day without a super-O. Maybe not a bad thing I feel a...

I had promised myself that I was taking a rest for a day yesterday, but I'm not very strong willed and thought that I would just have a quick try last night, A-less as usual. I'm very glad that I did. it wasn't the fastest onset ever but considering how tired I was and how upset I had got over this whole thing yesterday, I was amazed tat anything happened at all. The super-O built up nicely and I had a...

It's been a real emotional rollercoaster in the last week since my breakthrough. Exhilarated one minute after after a mind blowing super-O, totally despondent when it just wasn't working. I don't think I have experienced such a range of emotions since my first serious relationship in my early 20's. I have developed laryngitis today and feel mentally and physically drained and need to get an early night. It must be related, my body is telling me something. For the first time...