Helical's beginnings

Welcome to the forum and to a new adventure.

My advice:

-use your lube shooter. It isn’t easy to get enough lube in just by putting it on the toy, especially if you are tight. Dryness during a session can lead to discomfort and, for me, post session pain. 

-insert very slowly while breathing deeply and consciously relaxing. Know that you have two sphincters in to get past in the first 3-4(?) cm of insertion, and the second can need extra relaxing.

-if pain persists try a different lubricant.

If you are only using the toy as instructed, that is, without manipulating it, there is no reason you should be “tearing” anything. Think about the size of your poop compared to this toy. The toy is pretty small and inoffensive.  

Hemorrhoids.. maybe, but that would be a something a doctor would be able tell you. I don’t think internal hemorrhoids are a major problem for aneros users, but others surely know more about the subject than I do.

Posted by: @unknownnewuser

May I have tips on preventing post-session discomfort?...

I got it in after what seemed several minutes, although that second time I felt plenty of resistance to pushing it in throughout that process.

There are basically two kinds of pain/discomfort that one may encounter with their first few Anerosessions. First there is muscle pain/discomfort. This may occur as a result of pelvic floor muscles not accustomed to the workout aneros use may entail. This type of discomfort should gradually abate as your muscles become more toned and strengthened through practice sessions. Getting into a regular Kegel exercise regime may help here as well.

Please see @BigGlansDC 's thread Kegels do feel real good if you do them faithfully! and the threads Kegels Question, The Kegels do work! Especially with Aless!" and Kegel Workouts! for some words of wisdom on this exercise regime.

The second type of pain/discomfort is due to irritation of the delicate membranes of the anal canal and rectum. Since those membranes are not self lubricating, you need to provide that lubrication. As @divine_o mentioned above, lubing your Aneros alone may not be enough, at least initially until you are well practiced with relaxing during the insertion process. I'd recommend you try using some Vaseline or Natural Jelly to coat the walls of your anal canal first. This will start the relaxation process, then use you lube shooter to inject about 5ml. of lube into the rectal cavity. After doing this you can then proceed with your Aneros insertion. This regime of lubing may not be necessary once you have become well practiced at relaxing your sphincter muscles for device insertion.

Posted by: @unknownnewuser

I suppose the cure is more relaxation- not easy for me yet- before and during insertion.

This is certainly an important aspect of the insertion process, as you get more experienced it will get easier with less discomfort provided you are adequately lubing yourself. You may find that a gentle, muscular 'pushing out', as if defecating, may help during the insertion process as well. It can be noted here that the rectum should be empty of feces prior to Aneros use, having a bowel movement at least 30 minutes prior to your anticipated Anerosession is advised. Clean-out is optional and may relieve any anxiety regarding fecal matter.

Learning to relax is not only important for the insertion process but for your entire Anerosession as well, learning some breathing techniques will help. Please see @rook 's post in A Question about Breathing for some helpful tips and information links. You can also read Deep Belly Breathing and Relaxing (a file I downloaded many years ago authored by Temple University Professor R. Hicks, unfortunately no longer available online). This will help you relax overall.

Good Vibes to You!

To throw this out there, it may be the silicon. When I first started using silicon toys, I had the same reaction. When I switched to the plastic, it became a lot more comfortable. Now, after a couple of years, I love the silicon so I seem to have built up some tolerance to it.

Or, instead of building up a tolerance, I may have just learned to lube properly (as @rumel and @divine_o mentioned above). Using a lube shooter and good lube (which I see you have) will make a world of difference.

A HT is on order.  I like the idea of plastic, for smoothness.  I understand not to throw out the HST.  My rear has mostly settled down.  After all of the foregoing comes pass, I’ll try the tips, which were all new to me.  The measured approach would be taking 1 or 2 tips at a time but I can also see myself doing one fell swoop.

I intend to report back in the upcoming weeks.  The breathing file is a gem and a great life-skill, Aneros or not.

Thank you @divine_o, @rumel, @moeseph for knowledgeable, tailored advice.

I wonder if my body doesn’t care for my chosen lube?  More testing may tell.  An old post, discussed a different lube, but a similar feeling (@guest, “Anus feeling strange Help!”, 2016).  He received advice to try another formulation.

Session 3: Helix Trident and Uberlube silicone was a relative success- I didn’t have the initially-posted problem.  So for now it seems my body didn’t like Sessions, or perhaps the HST material.  I suppose I’ll save the HST for a day when I’d like to try a different non-silicone lube.  The “pee” feeling was more pronounced.  No drying-out of lube.

Pity the newbie.  He labors with the flood of info., and his psychological and physical hindrances regarding insertion, all with no instant pleasure.  LOL my brothers.

Insertion: Making it past the device’s “hump” felt puzzling.  I searched for the insertion angle for the device.  I didn’t feel as though I was using my hand to push the Aneros in against so much resistance, as much, for so long as the last session.  The point at which it’s drawn-in felt nicer than with water-based lube.

Lubrication: Owing to the dab will do ‘ya nature of silicone, liberal use of this type was only several drops over whole session.  This lube contains trace Vitamin E.  Since this forum cited a study with vitamin E concerns, I have ordered pjur Original silicone lube.

Although the HT didn’t reveal to me an O in session 3, and that’s ok, I did do some edging afterwards, having a renewed view of erotic potential from reading the forum.  A mini neutron star imploded deep inside with pleasure and for a split second I wondered if a dry-O would be revealed to me.  But it was of the garden-variety.  I look forward to session 4, likely Friday.  I’ll keep an eye on how this develops over time and may blog about it.

@unknownnewuser

Do keep us informed!! And good luck,just take any new progress as a gift and be happy with it. It takes a little time usually but you’ll get there!

Thanks @helghast.  In these, my early days here I like posting as I feel fellow readers’/journeymens’ support even if tacit.  I’ve changed usernames from unknownnewuser to helical since it looks like I’m pulling up a chair to sit a spell.

Session 4.  There was more precum than I ordinarily ever make in my life.  At points a kind of mild discomfort floated gave way to an airy tingling in the canal.  I was able to get some kind of muscle fluttering going for several seconds in the “stop peeing” part of the PC muscle.

Tensing pelvic muscles has ever been my go-to to mash the accelerator during sex.  I’m still fighting that belief, almost a reflex to tense this or that area.  There’s no O button to hit, and I have to learn that.

Posted by: @unknownnewuser

Insertion: Making it past the device’s “hump” felt puzzling.  I searched for the insertion angle for the device.

Session 5's pleasant surprise was, insertion became less a big deal.  I used a tip I'd read, to use a scooping motion instead of straight-in.

Trying hard to be in the spirit of “do nothing” in session 7 was rewarded with some blips of automatic slip/slide feelings and subtle leaking out of the male part.  Who thought doing nothing could be work?  It was nice not to try so hard to direct things via tension, though!  A couple of crests of energy and good feelings came to me while on all fours, but I hesitate to call them orgasms.  I’m intrigued, so more study is necessary 😉

Posted by: @unknownnewuser

I’m intrigued, so more study is necessary 😉

Yes, we are all students partaking in the study course Prostate 101, this is a laboratory study course and there is no final examination or written paper required. All students are self evaluated and self graded.

Good Vibes to You!

To readers unfamiliar with it, don’t miss the video of the master Forrest Andrews which @rumel linked above.

Hi readers, to keep things together, note I posted session 9 notes with my new HSV and Coconu oil to [Sticky] NEW HELIX SYN V REVIEWS

I’ve renamed this thread to "Helical's beginnings" to reflect its evolving content.  It had been “[Solved] HST disagrees with tight butt post-session”

Here I’ll write about crests of good feelings of sessions 7-9 thus far.  They occur well into the session and their beginning and ending are hard to pinpoint.  They’re sensed elsewhere than penile-pelvic floor pleasure: “higher” internally, in the direction of the navel.  While hard to describe, I know it when I feel it, and it is reproducible among sessions.  The sensation locus swaps between there and more easily-described pressure-contraction-pleasure at the sphincter.  As I gain experience perhaps I’ll more easily put words to this.

On all fours, they are enhanced by contraction of abs, glutes, hamstrings and general “abdominal cavity pressure”.

Lying on the side, they are enhanced by rotating hips gently in a circular pattern.  It also helps to envision a contraction that causes the Aneros to move sideways slightly left to right.

(I just remembered) On my back, clasping the backs of my thighs to bring my knees toward my chest also felt right.

One event can be followed in a little bit by another one, that is of greater strength.  This is exciting!  Perhaps I’m on the cusp of “something” but I don’t want to expect and want so hard that I should extinguish this.  And then it just evaporates from whence it came and I call the session done.

I read with interest @Tbob 's entry Feels really good, kinda like an orgasm. Is this the deal?  and the replies as intuition says these seem to be similar experiences.

Thanks for allowing me to share this personal experience with you as I seek to better define it for myself.

You guys, here in the 11th session, I think I have done it!  I can doubt myself, so my bar to surmount is set high.  I have not allowed myself to use the term “orgasm” yet.  Come to think of it, this could be wise.  With a moment to quiet your thoughts, take yourself back to your own early puberty excitement and explorations.  Did you carry a word to describe it?  Did you apprehend and thus confine(?) neatly the limits of your pleasure in the way we- perhaps men especially?- may hinder ourselves?  Or were you not drawn in like moth towards flame and delighted fresh-eyed in the nameless vista opened before you?  Were this to truly be Helical’s beginning, I’d love if possible to grasp a sense of wonder, enjoyment, exploration in the thick of my adult years yet somehow hearken back a kind of consonant memory-echo.

After work, I jogged outdoors and sipped red wine at dinner.  A shower was set luxuriously warmer than usual.  I aimed my body for falling water down my backside, told my ass to relax, and considered the ceremonies ahead with rubbed chest.  In bed I laid on my side and did ordinary prep. and insertion: Helix Syn V with Coconu lube.  In the low light I was careful make shine its entire relevant surface.  I summoned some porn.  I acknowledged slight internal discomfort- this is still frequent- but let it be.  I flipped among appealing videos while occasionally keeping an “eye” on automatic internal happenings.  These contractions I let be.  I didn’t try to exaggerate them nor preoccupy myself with them.  Important I think was the “letting be” and not forcing or driving it.  It’s striking the relative “effortlessness” of this.  I’d tried hard in prior sessions, squeezing this, tensing that, switching positions.  Not tonight.  “Receptivity” may also capture it.

Around 40 minutes in, rising pleasure whispered into my thoughts, caught me unawares.  I dwelled on it, reveled in it, you bet!  I put the screen down, and listened to moans of women in ecstasy and women slurping dick.  Closing my eyes while leaving open an auditory path to arousal, and an increased focus on my body allowed me higher yet, I believe.  I grabbed the bed edge and contracted my abs instinctively.  Wait, this was a good deal better than the last three sessions!  Perhaps sensical to only me is a feeling-transliteration of “sweetness” within my pelvis.  It really took me out of my head.  Specifically, rather than the recurring theme of  self-monitoring of sessions 1-10 these feelings I simply was immersed in.  As I came down I observed my breathing and heartbeat settling.  I’ll make it clear, this was not an ejaculatory orgasm.

I continued watching porn, and this time, turned the HSV on, to setting 2, low speed.  It wasn’t long before I felt what I had a few minutes before, and again, put the screen down as pleasure rose.  Similarly, once the pleasure-tide regressed seaward, a sense of calm and gentle internal tingling remained.  I felt done, satisfied.  Again, this is unique because an ejaculation was the only event capable of bringing me to “done”- edging would not, no, leastwise not for me.  The low level tingling remained for awhile and had me wonder if pleasuring would be needed later on.

So, for approximately 20 minutes I experienced varying degrees of pleasure, with 2 crests!  Not bad, not bad at all!

I’m comfortable for now using a term of art, “crests of pleasure”.  In the spirit of how tonight’s session evolved, let me take a laissez-faire attitude to leave it at that, enjoy whatever more may come my way in future sessions, and note to you again whenever I have something interesting to share with you.  Best of luck to all you chasers of ephemeral pleasure, harmful to none.

Once again, thank you- in no particular order- to each and every @divine_o, @rumel, @moeseph, and @helghast (and their predecessors) for your encouragement and advice, without which I may have jumped ship after my initial forays.

Session 12: I remade fast friends with my first purchase, Helix Syn Trident, I had set aside after session 2 in my "ring of fire" (lol) days last month.  Good feelings did not take a long time to develop tonight.  I had 3 crests in the 1 hour session- 2 on my side and 1 on all fours.  One crest did seem long.  After all of that, the fizzy champagne bottle may have had more swells yet but I let it be.

Sensitivity deep inside seems to be increasing across sessions.  I visualize and feel Aneros moving slightly across my prostate.  I envision I have anatomy unknown to medical science at that spot, that responds to gentle stroking like the glans, and that thought excites me more.  I feel the tip as a bulb nestled within just the right spot to grow pleasure.  I’m cultivating a new kind of lustfulness for a new kind of pleasure within session.

The device/method doesn’t deplete my sex energy.  It’s so cool I could enjoy partnered-sex this morning after last night’s anerosession, and solo-sex right after this evening’s anerosession.

No matter how hard I try, I can no longer deny- these are orgasms.  Hear the beautiful cacophony the instant the hammer of unfettered truth first shatters denial’s glassy wall.  I’m exhilarated to celebrate in kinship with you, the community- the rewired, the unrewired, the curious, the faltering, the sick, the healthy, those fallen off of the path, the support team- journeymen, all!

Session 13: HST and oil lube, 1 hour session.  Problem-free insertion.  Three dry orgasms: first two on my side, last one the strongest, on all fours.  These are not the dozen-seconds ejaculatory orgasms, these last.  When I cum, I conjure an intention to glide Aneros across the hot spot deep inside, and it brings me higher.  And higher- oh where will it stop?

I could not imagine in May I would have discovered this for my own, to have now & forever.  I ought to give my butt a holiday tomorrow, it’s been a wild 3 days in a row!  I must be euphoric to write gaga to you like this!

Best and peace to you.

Posted by: @unknownnewuser

No matter how hard I try, I can no longer deny- these are orgasms.

Why would you even try to deny that these are orgasms ? Congratulations on your rapid progress, all in less than a month's time, 'Bob's your uncle'.

Good Vibes to You!

@rumel, thank you.  Hmm, my fait accompli to myself.  I had to look up your idiom Bob's your uncle at Wikipedia .  My admiration goes to you, sir- I've learned from browsing your postings, and those along ones of many others had surely put a favorable breeze in my sails.  Compliments on your avatar most-evocative of roused pleasures.

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Posted by: @rumel

Why would you even try to deny that these are orgasms ?

Because, prior to becoming and acknowledging being orgasmic, I had a creeping negative thought I must be a faker, in my mistaken goal-seeking labors to drive progress through tension and contractions.  I had felt an inkling of something good.  I kept on.  Importantly, I came to submit to the feelings which then grew whilst quitting much of the deliberate muscular actions.  At my turning point in realization, the outright pleasure made it impossible to withhold from myself the moniker “orgasm” any longer.

Also a fear had lurked uncountenanced.  See Mini "castration complex" .  I had to momentarily avert eyes away from the unflinching belief that pleasure is tantamount to penis.  Swimming in that pleasure, in releasing one hand at a time from the philosophical mooring amongst the choppy waves, I steeled myself and drew a deep breath for a full immersion.  In the submerged quiet I soothed myself thusly.  It’s okay - it’s alright, to submit to pleasure offered to you, deep inside- a submissive pleasure as @divine_o had brought into my awareness in his reply in the linked thread.  And even permit myself a receptive-penetrative pleasure of sorts, in and of itself personally fraught, out of the necessity the portal to this singular organ of bliss.

“Illusions are painfully shattered, right where discovery starts, in the secret wells of emotion, buried deep in our hearts.”  -Rush

Posted by: @unknownnewuser

.. a fear had lurked uncountenanced.

My question was more for rhetorical effect but I am glad it induced you to do some deeper thinking about your own beliefs on what constitutes masculinity and male sexuality. You, like so many of us here, are realizing the much wider array of sensual pleasures available to us men than social 'norms' customarily allow. Breaking free from traditional taboos regarding male sexuality through Aneros use is often quite liberating in ways we can not anticipate.

This forum has had and will continue to have many of these types of discussions about breaking through outmoded thought paradigms and belief patterns. In the thread Identifying Obstacles to Progress I listed 12 general categories of obstacles, 8 of those categories (Expectations, Fears, Mind Noise, Impatience, Attitude & Beliefs, Erroneous Knowledge, Obsessive Thinking and Non-Acceptance) are completely in the realm of the mind (both conscious and subconscious). I continue to believe that orgasmic success is more than 90% a mental exercise and your Aneros use is more like a catalyst activating the other 10% of body involvement.

Good Vibes to You!

Thanks for the rhetorical question I turned into a writing prompt.   When I wrote that last post I had wanted to leave no stone left unturned, and now I made good on that.  Also the rest of your post was appreciated as was your custom of supplying links to relevant all-time best posts.

That was wisdom about the perennial (perineal? lol) nature of some topics.  Pop the popcorn kernels.  As they burst, each makes its own sound, yet characteristic of all of the rest.  And thus I take my place along the well-trodden path.

Session 14: ALESS!

Yesterday late at night I kept my word to myself to give my newly-hot butt an Aneros break after a session on three consecutive days.  Lying in bed I was, dwelling on sensation, diddling my nipple, contracting not too hard some good-feeling pelvic muscles.  Simply put, pleasure grew and grew, I pinched my nipple firmly, and I breathed heavier as I muffled my mouth with a pillow.  I held the pinch as I shook there through it all.  Remembering with Aneros- repeatability is a possibility, I maintained arousal until a peak came again.  This time too was on my side.  There is something safe-feeling about the side-lying position that makes it easier to mentally expand when your inner world begins quaking.

Recalling I’d never orgasmed on my back with Aneros, I turned just so, soles on the bed and knees up, and wanted to challenge myself.  Intuiting it could feel good, I moved rising pleasure towards my rectum with gentle squeezes, somewhat timed to my arousal, again fingering my nipple.  The involuntaries picked up as I squeezed my nipple hard and brought the bed’s comforter to my mouth to hush my heavy breath.  This third time’s coming-down was met with reverie and the whispered refrain, how is this even possible, how is this even possible?

In what degree less pleasure than with Aneros was this?  Some, I am sure- the slip-sliding frictional pleasures were absent, naturally.  But was anything missing at the peak?  It is hard to say!

“Faith” the nips work, something weeks ago I would not have ventured, was key to bringing me over the edge each time.  There was something about allowing myself to thrill to and dwell within a teasing, circling touch, and sometimes a barely-scratching or stroking.  There was also something to suspending disbelief to feel the albeit faint call and echo between nipple and prostate.  And when the time was right- involuntaries raggedly started and mental excitement feverish- to pinch the nipple and hold that pinch to bring myself within the o-zone.

I feel freed.   The prior model* of my pleasure fits not quite so well anymore.  I had attained ALESS (Aneros-less orgasm) last night.  I had continued to tingle in what I interpret as prostate-horny as I wrote this last night.  I am becoming a changed man.

*may be a topic for another entry.   For now: shaking loose the belief my pleasure-universe revolves around touching my penis.  An alternate new fiery locus of sensation residing elsewhere can be “tapped”.  Receptivity.  And another, I can ride a self-amplifying oscillation of “want”-“feel” to heights.

Thanks for joining me in my journaling, a safe place I can pause and consider what has come to be a special period in my life of wonderment and growth.

@helical

Posted by: @helical

No matter how hard I try, I can no longer deny- these are orgasms.

Think a lot of men have this problem. They are already there,but don’t realise or believe it. Not sure,they maybe think it’s just p-waves. Well done on all your progress.

Please I don’t wish to give any impression I am picking nits on the word “problem” 

The trainee may do well to consider it a “developmental step”.  Paraphrasing @rumel, Aneros is > 90% mental.  Thus I am trying to avoid any possible ladening of the trainee undertaking psychic work and  processing/developing bodily actions-responses.

I submit to dear trainee to take rising feelings and his awareness of them at face-value, and not discount them.  These will beget additional greater responses in a future session or perhaps in the same session as an increased crest of pleasure relative to the preceding ones.  He should be open to all he receives, that he may cross over into significantly more intensity such that he has no other name to call than orgasm.

Thanks for the praise.  You know as well as I it takes significant effort and a degree of patience and “beginner’s mind”.  Yet the emerging discovery of this for myself is scaffolded by past and present Forum denizens.  You’d also encouraged me.

Posted by: @helical

This third time’s coming-down was met with reverie and the whispered refrain, how is this even possible, how is this even possible?

I continually ask myself this question, even after all this time. Interestingly, before I began my journey years ago, something deep within me told me there was more. It is why I began my explorations in the first place.

Posted by: @helical

I came to submit to the feelings which then grew whilst quitting much of the deliberate muscular actions.

Submission is something that comes up in this forum often, though I feel is overlooked nearly as much. We are so conditioned to do something and try and control things that we never give our bodies wisdom the opportunity to express itself.

Wonderful to read and share in your journey.

Sessions 15-20

Posted by: @rumel

Yes, we are all students partaking in the study course Prostate 101,

Into the practicum, my body is explored in the application of what I studied you all have written in various posts.  I’m going easier on my rump, interspersing HST days with A-less-focus sensation-building days.  With the latter it’s also hoped to build muscle control/tone/awareness and anticipation for the next Aneros session.

Without further ado, I submit to you the nitty-gritty:

My elbows propped upon a desk, a terrycloth towel draped across the bed sensually dragged sideways against the back of my sack and hamstrings.  I often observe abdominal tension can drive things or (and) occurs with rise of good feelings.  And "abs" are surely activated in this posture.  Aneros may be slimming and may help general strength and conditioning 😉  The tabs moved freely- also a treat.

The tabs also move well while on my back with my knees clasped close to my torso.  The opposing glute tension in turn, rings up its next-door neighbor, the pelvic floor, to begin twitches.  Adding drool-worthy lasciviousness is additional sensation at the sphincter and finding myself in such a deliciously horny pose in flagrante delicto.  Bearing down briefly with held breath is an intensifier, spreading pleasure around the perineum (A-less days), or a gentle nudge upon release (Aneros days).  And the freedom of Aneros movement can reveal a subtle rocking of p-tab on perineal outside skin. 

(Session 19 A-less)  I noticed my rectal posterior surface in front of the sacrum, and thought in squeezing this part, this could lead to an orgasm in its own right, perhaps pretty quickly.  During session it was area of sensitivity and involuntary contraction.

(Session 20 Aneros)  I asked myself “if there will be new sensations during the session” (@morexp).  And like so <with a wave of @morexp 's wand>, some materialized, which built on the objective-observer (@rumel) -ship of session 19.  This was rewarding!  Orgasm was driven higher in noticing and alternating-dwelling upon sweet repeating reciprocation in pleasure spots at the prostate “hug” (@RickR) and session 19’s rectal anterior.  Assisted by internalized images in @sowithoutaneros ’s Open Collection of Helpful Visualizations for Aneros use, Aless sessions and rewiring, the fevered-dream as this occurred were twin snakes (@gulliver-plus) chasing up a caduceus, meeting and consuming each other at the top as in an M.C. Escher's Impossible Construction.  Also in that thread, the pelvic floor anatomical diagram (@gulliver-plus) helped inform my imagined and maybe actual control of the transverse perineal muscle, which itself became tingly as well as the simultaneous good feelings of the HST moved gently at some other depth.  It’s interesting that diagrams can seem to cue a kinesthetic understanding of how things work inside or nudge us to explore and discover “oh so that’s what this is for”.  Similar to what @morexp noted, nipple play helps me trigger an orgasm and make it last.  Feeling and dwelling on the gentle pinch is just too good, attention from the pelvic area is momentarily diverted, and when I return there, arousal had bumped up.

I think I see that my sensitivity is growing with practice, through an increasing awareness of body and with meditative concentration, along with integration of the forum’s practical knowledge, cues, and metaphorical and real images.

Best and peace to all.

Sessions 21-24

(21 A-less)  After the inaugural success of session 14’s A-less, I haven’t played around with A-less as intently, not “going for the gold” of orgasm as if seeking some proof-of-concept.  Superstars such as @helghast, @rickr et. al, reassure me that A-less is very possible and reproducible, for yourselves via your posts.  In my current phase of learning, I seem to like to grab for the easier (for me) Aneros success rather than build from nothing at all A-lessly.  I should pay A-less-ville a visit sometime.  It is still a marvel to me that A-less can occur at all!  It did occur for me, I reassure myself through rereading that post I did in fact write.  This padawan has much to learn.

I think I can grok the posts of others that Aneros compared to A-less can feel more (prodding, if that’s too-strong of a word?).  You guys are a wonder who’ve conjured A-less into your life without benefit of Aneros beforehand.

(22) Aneros felt notably comfortable inside.  I hadn’t bothered to count how many orgasms I had every little while in 90 minutes.  There had been a handful before I calmly thought I am done, for now.  I was pleasantly lost in the phenomenon as one regressed and while still feeling good, another began to build.  Was this the makings of a Super O or a kind of Super O itself?  Maybe I shouldn’t concern myself with that.  I felt within the realm of letting things happen more than directing them.  It was qualitatively different than the “reciprocating” pleasure of session 20, but that’s ok.

(23 Aneros) Around 5 orgasms in 50 minutes.  Start of session was unhurried “butt foreplay”- and it is still odd for me to think this way from a traditional jacking off paradigm.  This makes for easier insertion, and reduces or eliminates a persisting in-session subtle rectal discomfort.  Porn for a few minutes seems an enjoyable distraction as I settle in and to build arousal, first mentally, and then small involuntaries.  As others have noted too, at some point more arousal is hampered by immersion in the porn instead of my own body.  Once I turned my attention inward (porn sound is ok or can be helpful), good things began to build and increase in frequency.  Deliberate brief breath-holds, which are an intensifier, were fewer than last session, but this way is more relaxing and still felt good.  I seem to be letting go of reliance-belief I need to tense up major muscle groups to further and to enjoy progress in a session.

(24 Aneros) Don’t take these notes as keeping score, because I know it is not about that.  Speedy for me, twice came before the half-hour mark.  I thought I was done, I casually surfed the web and another snuck in 10 minutes later.  A nice pelvic buzz remains for several minutes.  It’s nice to know this sort of thing can be rewarding without need for an hour(s).  Yet it can go on if desired.

I’m experiencing Bjork’s 90’s song hauled up from a memory and dusted off as-new.  This pixie’s unconventional, wild vocal style complements the subject matter I am imprinting onto it.  The intersection of the topic of the consummation of potential lovers is, Aneros is about our “relationship” to ourselves and it, and ourselves-to-ourselves.  Anticipation,  Letting go.  Vulnerability.  New exploration.  Excitement.  Joy.

Bjork - Big Time Sensuality (Original Remix) [Official Video]

Lyrics at songmeanings.com

“I can sense it

Something important

Is about to happen

It's coming up

It takes courage to enjoy it

The hardcore and the gentle

Big time sensuality”

In contrast to the preceding hyper produced MTV video, here’s something slightly calmer:

Bjork Big Time Sensuality Live Top of the Pops 1993

I just discovered hers covered The Starting Line's song .  I’m happy for the existence of both, because without the original there wouldn’t be the cover.

Best to you out there.