The winning card

I was once playing a card game with some friends. I was close to winning, but I was one specific card away from my goal. Anxiously I waited for my turn, and every turn that came up, I got the wrong card, it was frustrating to be so close yet not quite get there. I was concentrating on getting the specific card to win.

Eventually after some time had passed my card turned up. My friends turned to me and asked what I was thinking about this time. To my surprise and realization I responded, "I wasn't thinking of anything!"

My Aneros sessions have been improving, and as expected the less I'm worried about getting there, the more pleasant and productive they have become. I haven't quite crossed over into dry orgasms yet, but my entire session feels like being 75% to orgasm which is pleasant enough in of itself. Someday I hope to be surprised when by body finally decides that I'm ready.