added a little hot glue to the tab of my mgx, about 1/8 in, and put it inside a ping pong ball--got better response than without the glue but still seem to be stuck at the same place, namely when the feelings come i can't seem to relax any more to keep them going--it is very tantalizing when this occurs as it seems as though i could keep them going and get over the hump if i could stop tensing...

well, i had 2 bms this morning and i prelubed with jelly and then inserted my mgx without the hot glue, but with the tab inside a ping pong ball and didn't seem to get much action--i can only hope that i'm getting rewired from all these sessions and that someday all hell will break loose...

took off hot glue from tab and tried it without any modifications cause helix seemed to be getting a good bite in the right spot--it was less aggressive but i think it still hit the spot, or near it--still at the same place although there always seems to be something happening--just not enough and not self propelling--will take a day or so off as i've noticed that when i do that my ass and prostate seem to be working while...

warm water douched and prelubed with k-y again--usual session with some interesting feelings and some dead time, although there doesn't seem to be as much dead time any more--did whole bunch of things with no advancement...

over on the forum pages i wondered if i had so little movement of my aneros because i no longer used prelube, nor did i water douche either since i first began, so i did both tonight and i think it improved my session--i had buzzing and pulsing almost the whole session, and i was able to pretty much control it too--formerly it would last only a few seconds and then stop, but tonight i was able to keep...

lubed up the mgx with k-y again and had another session--still progressing, but only slowly--had the pulses in my ass and some other feelings in lower abdomen--like the abdominal quaking cause i believe it signifies that some rewiring is taking place and will bear fruit in the future--maybe i'm still too directional and goal oriented and not laid back, even though i relax as much as i can--one thing different was that i took some contractions very hard and held...

tried the mgx like it was yesterday--not too much going on--had the ass pulses like yesterday but this time with the mgx--i think that if i could maintain the pulses for a considerable length of time it would lead to some pleasure--the pulses are surely more enjoyable than the buzzing...

started with the modified mgx--still slow going--brought the p-tab contact point a little farther away from the stem--still where i was a week or so ago--some ass buzzing and a few dives in the ass tried the helix, unmodified, with a little more success in that i got what i call ass pulses instead of the buzzing--the pulses are more enjoyable but harder for me to maintain--had very little considering the amount of time i used...

well, i think part of my problem the last two days was that i was slightly constipated--today was a bit better after some bms, but not entirely satisfying--there is very little movement of my mgx--i think i will have to continue moving the contact point on the p-tab until i get constant, aggressive contact on my sweet spot--i know it's right when i get a constant buzzing in my prostate--this seems to be a critical point for me--when the contact...

well, made the tab shorter and lower but it didn't change the results much--still only minimal feelings generated which don't lead anywhere-tried complete relaxation, holding slight and heavy contractions, breathing, different positions and other stuff--not advancing so far--will try to lay off tomorrow and start again the day after...