well, this was a good practice and learning experience--no big thrills but i think my thoughts about how to control the two different orgasms are correct--today i practiced the slight anal contraction for the prostate rub and the rectal contraction for the anal feeling--didn't have many anal bubbling feelings today but had a lot of the massager rubbing on the prostate--i know what the precursors of the various feelings are now--the prostate rub is sort of like a feeling of...

well, this was surely a very profitable session today--i was able to tell a prostate orgasm from an anal one and how to control each--the prostatic orgasm is a subtle one in that it produces a divine feeling by rubbing on the prostate, which feels like something rubbing down from top to bottom--sometimes it is hard to tell whether this feeling is in my balls or my prostate, but today i could definitely tell where it is located--it feels like...

wow!--no lack of movement yesterday--i was lying down on my back on a non session day and nodding off after about 1/2 hr when my ass started puckering violently ( i guess it was an anal orgasm)--it felt like my asshole was completely turned inside out very quickly and violently with no gradual buildup or warning--as a consequence i was caught unaware and could not help responding with a very hard contraction, trying to get control of my runaway ass,...

well, i have to say it again--i need to take a couple of days off--yesterday i made some changes to the hot glue on the tab and couldn't wait to try it that same day, even though i knew i should give it some time as i had been going at it hot and heavy for days at a time--i thought that my prostate was probably over stimulated or "pooped" and wanted to give it a rest--anyway the the new...

well, i took off the hot glue cause it was getting me nowhere where i had it located on the tab and tried it again without--nothing so i added hot glue to it again but in a different spot on the tab--better so i added more in the same spot--terrific---instead of adding the glue towards the stem i added it on the end of the tab, parallel to the stem, thus making it longer--i watched some aneros use on xtube...

well, i had 2 short sessions today--both were the usual--i really am starting to think i have more of a chance of an orgasm without the aneros in--i seem to have more intense feelings in my prostate when i just sit or lie down after a session is over...

boy, it seems now that my off days are giving me more pleasure than my sessions with the aneros--after a session whenever i sit or lie down i get delicious feelings in my prostate that are as good as or better than the ones i am able to generate with the aneros--they come on immediately when i sit and come to their peak in a very short time--they are always great feeling and i can keep them around for quite...

well, this session was good--there was no dead time with no feelings--i prelubed with jelly and lubed the mgx with albolene--the tab had the 1/4 in hot glue and it was inside a ping pong ball--the feelings started almost immediately while i was on my back to relax--i think i have some good techniques now, that seem to be working--i found out today that when i fully relax and my legs start to tighten up or i have twitches shooting...

this session was informed by advice from tiphereth to my thread on lack of aneros movement--he said, and i believe, that the ass has to be completely relaxed for the involuntary movement to start, then when it does it should be answered with only the slightest contraction i am capable of--if too much contraction, then it stops--my problem is that when the aneros darts up my ass i can't respond moderately--my response contraction has always been violent--if i can tame...

i should have waited for tomorrow before trying another session but i didn't--i was too excited by what happened last night without the aneros that i had to try it right away--now i am a firm beliver that an equal amount happens between sessions as happens with the aneros in--that "rewiring" is a real thing...