I like men. Not just because I'm gay though. I like men's spirit, style, temperament, everything about men. I think we are completely good. That's my attitude. Born good and good deep down, always. Sometimes it's hard for me to see the good in particular men because of the way they've been hurt and the choices they've made as a consequence. I like everything about men and about who I am. I like men's essential innocence, even when being naughty....
I could get used to this. Exchanged help with someone in chat by taking turns listening to each other at bedtime which made me happy. Many mini orgasms overnight and on awakening. Had my usual dose of monatomic white gold sublingual. Practice and a demonstration of exchanging energy remotely on chat this afternoon. Then someone reminded me that it's been a long time since last I jacked off and it was healthy to do it occasionally. I began another session,...
something new came up during this afternoon's session. I was doing nothing, just aware of the aneros caressing my prostate and pleasuring me and doing the tantric breathing. I was just going along this way and the thought popped into my head that something else is blocking my way to more pleasure. When the energy of the tantric breathing reached my heart it transformed into mostly tears and some shaking. It took a while of sobbing, getting more intense and...
Just learning how to "suck" energy up my spine to my chest, head and back down my chest/heart, abdomen penis and prostate. Feels like a hot or icy hot wave that follows my breath and my attention around my trunk, amazing. The base of my spine feels very cool, temperature-wise. Don't know exactly what I'm doing except Jmay talked about this sucking energy around before and now I understand what he meant. If I do this a few times, the...
My best sessions are on awakening, I'm relaxed, breathing easy, quiet, focused on my body and ready to receive pleasure. These are asexual sessions which means I'm not turned on or stimulating myself in any way. I figure I'm aroused by the life force within me or whatever you want to call it. It's something that's with me all the time but is hard for me to access when my brain is engaged. During the day when I have a...
I rode the MGX all night and woke up periodically for mini orgasms and went back to sleep. Whilst I was in the bathtub this morning for my usual 1-2 hour soak and chatting with the guys about less sessions, I began to have one. But that wasn't unexpected. What was unexpected was I started to feel the same warmth radiating from the area of my heart that usually I feel coming from my loins! I was feeling particularly relaxed...
I was up til the wee hours chit-chattering my brains out with the most silly nonsense with dj and brine, the after-hours club. I finally closed the lid of my laptop thinking I would go to sleep. I was curious about how my body would respond to the severely modified MGX, no p-tab or handle ring. And how the Tantric prana exercises which I learned yesterday would affect me. So I played with moving energy around with no-touch, and with...
Pardon the unoriginal if descriptive title. If I think too much it gets stale. Again these are my impressions from last night, less a session than just me, my life. I've decided that although my last blog entry wasn't perfectly what I might want, I don't care, this is mostly for me. Again with the calm seas with one something in the middle, a kind of combination yawn, stretch, gasp, sigh, and mini O. What is it? But the real action...
Rather than describe what I did and felt, I'd like to describe what I was thinking and feeling during this session. I didn't have the time for a lengthy session but had vivid impressions that I want to put down while they're fresh. After settling my body in with the progasm, I listened to Brine's 2nd recording again, comparing meditatively what he was describing and what I was going through, trying to follow his trail as far as I could. I...
I decided to wear my modified MGX to bed last night rather than the usual eupho syn to see what happens. I modified it to be more comfortable and was eager to try it out while I slept. So I lubed with aloe Vera and greased the MGX with silicon and inserted it. I got involved with chat which modulated the sensations since my attention was on other things. I finally got so tired I f went to sleep. I...