Labels and new perceptions (and perhaps a guide for some)

I find myself getting bored, drowsy/lethargic and generally disinterested. My penis goes soft never to return. Today though is a revelation.

I am of a body or mental type that requires variation in my sessions. Regular variances in position and also in mental focus to achieve results. Its a bit hit and miss at times but it works, for now.

Here is an example of what I do: start with a device, keep it clam/relax, lying on back legs bent or lying down, doesn't matter which. Usually i get seriously intense feelings of orgasm almost immediately (within 5 mins) and then, usually they would subside. Sometimes looking at my cock rising during this process gets me another one if i'm lucky, but usually... nothing.

I then tried some variations of lying on my front, moving my legs into different positions and then on my side, then on back but with pillows (helps with strain on my legs if they're bent and up by my ass) and then the most important variation that worked really well. The tug o war.

My version of this though s three fold (all of these are light, not harsh or heavy movements) these all get my arousal to a high level and usually my cock is rock hard for the remainder of the session:

1. Short pulsing grasp (maybe 5) then release. In the release is where i feel the feelings. T
2. 15 second holding contraction and release for 25
3. Pushing out and holding then release (combine with the above as well)

It gets to a point where anything i try, just works, any kind of fantasy, physical movements or position works. I have taken to using a large mirror to look at myself playing with my nipples and watching as my cock gets hard as well. Very raunchy!

I then get a series of rising arousal level and perhaps coincidentally my penis gets hard at the same time, or perhaps i need it to b... i don't know. Each of these erections or perhaps rising arousal level/prostate engorgement would give what i have been calling 'dry orgasms' for some time. However some describe them differently here so its always left me feeling its wrong, or perhaps its my perception that it is wrong when in fact its actually been right all along.

I had one of these rising arousal levels in a series of 3 or so, my penis becomes rock solid, my pelvis is warm and tingly with the scent of orgasm, and i feel like im on the cusp of orgasm. It is different to a traditional orgasm, in terms of its feeling. But for the first time in an aneros session i can say it was quite intense, for whatever it was. It lasted about 15 seconds. But it all felt very much like i have to d a lot of work to get it to happen, there is no way 'do nothing' would have achieved this (for now)

I also notice one possible negative thing. I have breaks in between, about 5 mins where i feel nothing so i get up and move something or turn on a light, but then i can return, its not a seamless, flowing session, its 'broken up'

PS I've recently been engaging in sex with my partner using an aneros and i'm finding that as soon as its in its putting me at a super orgasmic level for the whole session. When i finally blow my load it is beyond measure. Earth shattering, mind numbing, perception destroying, penis exploding, universe imploding orgasm that makes me wonder what the hell it is? nothing has come close to those orgasms, i wonder if the super o is like this? it also lasts for a god 30 secs and i shoot like i'm p!ssing cum!