Just over 2 years..still no Super O

Not sure this is interesting enough for a topic but I thought I'd chime on on my experience for just over 2 years.  November is coming soon and I was thinking I'd try the Mindgasm no nut challenge again a third time for a month.

I am now 52 and had a post 2 years ago when I started out.  Initially my first sessions were new and I felt a lot of pleasure from the new experiences, but that lead to frustration over many sessions feeling *close* to an orgasm.  Most ended with me jerking off to satisfy the 'edging'.  Counterproductive but I needed the relief!

Later I went on to trying various methods and the one that got me to a HFWO was squeezing for many increasing lengths of time for about 15 or 20 mins...then finally enjoying the feelings.  I was taking THC also.  TWO times this pushed me over the edge to a HFWO, but it's a bit of a chore doing the squeeze/holds for so long for each session. 

Since then I haven't had much success or made much effort.  Since January this year my ex wife has put me through hell and dealing with her bullshit and losing so much of my income and savings to a lawyer meant that I was not going to be in a place for relaxing sessions anyways.  It has been the worst year of my life (don't get me wrong I have had way worse things happen to me, but not continual hell for months and months like this.  Nothing has been resolved after 10 months of hell, but I'm in a temporary holding pattern so perhaps for now I can make some session attempts again.

A couple of months ago I was watching TV on a sunday morning and I could feel my prostate was tingly or irritated.  I did contractions for a while and really felt like I could achieve a HFWO without any toys!  It felt good but didn't quite get me there.  That was a unique experience for me.

One thing that has seemed to amplify my prostate feelings is to imagine the prostate tingles tied directly to a spot behind my right jaw.  I have no idea why but I get kind of a chill/tingle from my prostate to my jaw when I focus on that.  I wonder if that could be the path to a Super O or rewiring. 

A couple of weeks ago I tried a session without toys and used the Mindgasm Stairway to Heaven lesson, where you imagine doing various squeezes and then hang onto the pleasure feelings and pull them to your brain, and since they are imagined there are no upper limits to the pleasure you feel.  I certainly didn't achieve an orgasm but I did feel a fair bit of pleasure which is interesting considering there was no physical stimulation at all. 

Anyways I am thinking to try some sessions with and without an Aneros again..maybe get some THC again.  I won't give up on my quest for a Super O, but I certainly haven't accomplished much this year.  Not a very interesting thread, but I kind of just wanted to reconnect here.  I'll probably try the November Mindgasm challenge again...