I used to post here regularly around 10 years ago. My username was previously Smudgefish, apparently because I haven't logged in for years my old account has been deleted and I can't access it. Never mind.
I gave up using any aneros device many years ago due to total frustration. My original experience was that I went straight to full body orgasms on my third session with rapidly increasing pleasure, super-O's, orgasm on demand and some almost out of body euphoric experiences on subsequent sessions. It all came crashing down a few weeks later when I went through the most terrifying few days/weeks of my life when I experienced a Kundalini Syndrome. After that the best I could achieve were some basic rather dull pelvic orgasms, and a feeling of loss like withdrawing from a powerful drug, eventually I gave up in total frustration. Subsequently got divorced life is now totally different.
I have come back to this with a clean slate and tried to start from scratch, using my Helix Syn Trident, or Progasm. Again I'm getting very limited pelvic sensations, having said that they are incredibly enjoyable above the level of pleasure I get from a normal ejaculatory orgasm, but I'm not even sure it's really an orgasm, no involuntary contractions, and no feeling of my body taking over or any loss of control. It's all a bit confusing, I'm definitely not over thinking it during a session, just enjoying what I get, but it is a bit odd.
I've never experienced what I can identify as a P wave ever, even 10 years ago. All the standard milestones seem a bit foreign to me.
In addition I have serious problems relaxing. I remember that was the case even right at the start yet I managed some incredible experiences. Every time I relax the feeling just vanishes, after an hour like that I have to give up, but add in some tension and off I go again. What's going on there?
Going to keep going. I would love to feel something orgasmic somewhere else in my body. I distinctly remember the very last time that ever happened 10 years ago when I had an orgasm in my right arm. I remember just concentrating on an area and bam! I would have an orgasm there, certainly that doesn't work any more. I also remember everything used to start with a small orgasmic electric shocks in my pubic area, keeping looking for that but nothing. Trying to be patient maybe it will just happen one day when I least expect it. Having said that I know expectation kills everything so try to be aware of that!
Any comments or suggestions gratefully accepted.
I recognized the username and thought "Oh yeah Smudgefish, that sounds familiar, haven't seen that guy around in a while"... didn't think it was 10 years though, holy crap. 😮
I've never had anything serious enough that I'd call it kundalini syndrome, but in my pre-aneros days, I used to experiment with moving orgasm energy around my body, channeling feelings up my spine, etc. (which I discovered by accident). And I did have a period where these sensations started happening on their own sometimes, at inconvenient places and times, which was a little distressing... because if I wasn't in control of them, then the door was open for almost anything else to happen.
Somehow, in a way I can't even fathom, I gained the ability to shut these feelings down. It's something I don't even know how I did, there wasn't any physical routine, it was just a wordless command. After that, I stopped playing with energy in this way.
But I wonder if some part of that shut-down was too effective, that what I've discovered is a new brake pedal that I'm keeping pressed without knowing. Some kind of deep inhibition I'm not even conscious of.
Then again it can alternate between that, and "maybe I'm just lubing wrong". I don't even know anymore. 😄
Thanks @clenchy think I remember having conversations with you all those years ago! Hope you're keeping well. Does seem a bit quiet in here these days I remember having 10 replies in an hour back then!
I too often wonder if the body has a 'brake pedal' for this sort of thing that kicks in if it all gets a bit much, after all these are quite phenomenally strong forces and endogenous drugs at play, and for some of us potentially highly addictive. I remember it being absolutely out of control and I think that I was addicted to the endorphine/dopamine rush, certainly the withrawal when it stopped was painful to say the least, and the energies involved after that I think had the potential to make me psychotic, they were seriously scary. Anyway... that was a long time ago.
I've just come across Mindgasm, looks interesting. Giving that a try, maybe it will help me relax and get things moving again. Being a bit more careful and taking it slow this time though.