Still in disbelief

I have been on this journey for a couple years, and have had some great feelings of pleasure along the way. However, it seems that I’m never really able to let go. Last night I had a mind blowing breakthrough. Lately my wife and I have been giving each other massages before sex. Last night I decided to slip my helix syn in before she got out of the shower. My wife is aware of my aneros use, but has never gotten involved, we had sex before while I was wearing a plug, but never an Aneros. I began giving her a massage, not really thinking about the device inside me. After about 10 minutes, I noticed that I was getting a little short of breath and my legs were twitching a bit. After I was done with her, I laid next to her and she said it was my turn. I grabbed her hand and put it on the helix’s handle and said I’ve been having my turn. We then started kissing and making out. What happened next is almost unreal. I started having what I think was my first Super O. All I remember is, I felt a deep pleasure, started shaking, and mumbling that I’m cumming. This last for a minute or two, the whole time still making out with my wife(no penetration). I snapped out of it for a second and had a little bit of a scared feeling, not knowing how my wife was reacting. She kept going with it, and in no time I was into another more intense Super O. This one seemed to keep going. In the mean time, my wife started to stroke my flaccid penis. I had absolutely no control, the super o blended right into a TO and I was near passing out. I never expected this, but apparently not thinking about my prostate and being in a sensual moment with my wife, allowed me to break through. I cannot wait to see where this goes. The best part is; now it’s not my journey, it’s ours. Sorry if this is long, but I just had to share.