My Journey-gctid156566

I’m a 56-year old gay male. Except for rare occasions, I’ve been a top in sexual situations, though I’ve had glimpses of the erogenous potential of my ass, and have wanted to explore that further. My brief forays into anal sex were mostly painful and discouraging. Over the years, I’ve tried various toys with limited success as the discomfort largely outweighed the pleasure. Part of me wanted to accept the seemingly obvious fact that I was just not a bottom, but I couldn’t quite let go of the desire to recapture and heighten the all-too-brief flashes of pleasure I had experienced in my explorations.

A few years ago I learned about Aneros and purchased a Progasm. I tried it a few times and found it to be painful to insert when I could get it in at all, and generally uncomfortable, so I gave up using it. Awhile after that, during a trip to Mexico, I began experiencing pain in my anal region and urinary tract. This was the beginning of a two-year odyssey of daily, debilitating pain eventually accompanied by anxiety and depression. Mainstream medicine proved to be of no help, and I despaired many times of ever living pain-free again. Fortunately, I kept searching for help, and was fortunate to find several wonderful professional healers, a naturopath and and two physical therapists specializing in pelvic pain, whose caring treatment set me on the path to eventual recovery. Basically, my rectal muscles were in a state of constant inflammation and constriction, like an ongoing charley horse in my ass. Inserting anything during that time was agony.

This experience, as difficult as it was, did not dampen my enthusiasm for exploring anal pleasure. A few months after my recovery, I decided to try a smaller toy, and purchased a Helix Syn. The first few time I used it produced no positive results, as it just felt strange and uncomfortable. Around this time, I found a link to a [URL="https://www.xtube.com/video-watch/multiple-male-prostate-orgasms-mmo-aneros-helix-syn-16318541"]video[/URL] posted by a Helix Syn user. This video was relevatory to me as it changed how I approached prostate massage. I realized that I needed to change my attitude from trying to make something happen, as in traditional penile masturbation, to being in a state of relaxed readiness, open and receptive to whatever might happen in a particular session. Once I made this shift in my approach, good things began to happen. This past February, I experienced my first waves of pleasure with the Helix Syn. It felt exciting, fresh and new, like I was a teenager again, experiencing sexual pleasure for the first time.

I continued my sessions with the Helix. Sometimes, little or nothing happened, but I kept going. I found that to experience the most success, I needed to be fully relaxed and rested, with no time constraints or obligations. If I was tired, run down or stressed, I learned that my body would not respond. Once, during a good session, my body started to shake involuntarily and I thought that it was due to my chilly room and stopped the session. A few weeks later, I had the same shaking during a session and this time, I kept going and experienced my first Super O. It was a good thing the windows of my bedroom were shut as I yelled and moaned until my throat was hoarse! A few weeks later I had another great session starting with the Helix Syn and ending with the Progasm, which has become my toy of choice. I’ve had several sessions with multiple Super O’s now, and it’s been an incredible experience. For me, the key has been being in the right state of mind – relaxed, rested, and really wanting it. I’ve also settled on a great combination of lube that works for me – ID Glide, shea butter, and coconut oil.

It’s been a great adventure towards uncovering the erotic potential in my ass that I always felt was there, and has opened up a new dimension in my sex life. My only wish is that I had discovered Aneros sooner, as it might have prevented my chronic pelvic pain. But the silver lining of that experience is that it made me more appreciative of the fact that I can experience pleasure in this area of my body. I guess maybe I am a bottom after all!