Took me a year, don't give up! Journey is over!

Like many other (hundreds? thousands?) that lurk these forums, I've been reading here for about 6 months. I almost gave up before I found there were forums here, so many posts gave me great advice. It's taken about a year now, and I finally feel I'm rewired. Had my first super-O yesterday, afterwards I wanted to open the window and yell to the world!

For those lurkers out there, like I did so many months ago, who are wondering if you had a super-O yet or not you have not. You will know when you have one that for sure! I started with the helix. From the beginning if you told me I didn't have a prostate I would have believed you. For weeks I got nothin. Nada. Ziltch. I got frustrated at many points, stopped and started using it several times and almost gave up before I started getting some sensations. The world of advice here then opened many doors. I read many posts about relaxing, lube, signs to look for, etc.

Anyway, I had once figured that my knees shaking and the aneros doing its little dance was the super-O. Great sensations, but nothing like what a lot of the posts here talk about. I was beginning to figure I, like some others on here, the super-O just wasn't going to come. I became more complacent I guess, and my sessions were more just to relax, de-stress and enjoy whatever feelings that came.

It was about 2 months ago I switched to the progasm jr. Wow what filling feeling! Took awhile to get used to it, and I stuck to the same sessions that I used before. I started to these 'pulses' that would just shoot thru me. At first I had no idea what was going on, I no joke checked my pulse on several of these thinking something was wrong with my heart. I began to find (again after reading many posts here) that the 'do nothing' approach was working best for me. I was getting more of these pulses (p-waves?) and I really could focus more on the gentle movements inside me. I found that just breathing moves the aneros enough.

Fast forward to yesterday. I started another session like any other. A bm then 20 squirts of warm water with the medicine syringe to clean myself out then lube up. I've almost always just laid back on my back with knees bend. The 'shakes' begin usually 45min to an hour later. I've tried other positions but this one has always done the most. Well this time I wondered if the shaking was actually holding me back. When it happens I can no longer focus on the little movements of my breathing, or even my heartbeat on the prostate. I turned to my side. I was so incredibly turned on, was thinking about this woman I saw at dinner the other night. She had a dark mini-skirt on and thin white panties. I don't think she knew it (who knows but her) but the way she was sitting and my angle at my table had the perfect view for an hour. Anyway I fantasied about her (you can imagine what about) and the pulses started began. BOOM. They really snap your attention. After another 30 minutes or so I would guess, these waves started to grow not as immediate intense, but for several seconds at a time. I felt a warmth flow over my as they hit.

I kept the fantasies going. I didn't focus my mind on anything but that. I used to do things like count seconds in contractions, focus on what muscles to move where and when, etc. This time none of that. I wasn't here, I was at my neighbors helping her move a box as she bend over showing her nipples. Or some other fantasy - I forget and here is why. The most intensive wave yet started to hit. My head began to buzz, my arms buzzed. My legs, my entire body. The aneros pulled inside me before I even knew it and my whole body felt like it exploded in a world of buzzing vibration. OH. MY. GOD. I felt like someone hit me with a sledgehammer of pleasure. I have no idea how long it went on, I lost track of time. Hell I lost track of reality. I flipped over on my back after some point in time and felt pre-cum spash over me (although I wasn't hard.. at least I don't think I was. For whatever reason I hardly ever get hard with the aneros in). The aneros had a death grip in me, you couldn't pull it out with a an F-350. I began to trash around on the bed for a couple minutes before I came out of it and began to settle down. Words can't explain just how amazing that was. How in ungodly hell did I not find out about this 20 years ago?! I tried to have another, but I was too fired up. I could not get relaxed again. After what I guessed what another 40 minutes I decided to have a super-T and call it a day. That was a 3-hour session btw!

I had another today, same method but this time skipping laying on my back. My session was cut short with a phone call (blast it) but now I'm confident that after a year (!) the sleeper has awoken! To you readers lurking, looking for hints, clues, tips... don't give up! And when you read time and time again to relax they aren't kidding! Relax! And it may take serious time to rewire... took me a year.

Peace.