Thoughts on contractions?

I just had to make my first post after I had my best session ever today.

I will try to summarize as much as possible, as not to bore everyone.


I have usually found that after an hour or two, my sessions end if heavy contractions get going. I have always wondered, "are my contractions too intense?" or, not intense enough? Although my contractions felt great, they were never over the edge great. I have always been a believer in the "Do nothing approach", so I just chalked it up to things being pretty much finished once heavy contractions took over.


Today I tried something different. My sessions have been steadily getting better everyday now for the last three months, so I knew there was more. It was almost like I made a deal with myself.....Resist the urge to contract at all cost! To clarify, I'm referring to the big ones.


With all my might, I resisted and it started to go where I had never been before. At the point where I didn't think I could take it anymore, I just remembered all the great advice... Relax,Relax,Relax. The urge would pass and my Helix Syn would start to pulse harder, until the next time I thought I was going to give in again. Every time I held off a contraction the next build up felt better than the one before. In the middle of pulsing away, I had a very warm shooting sensation across my upper thigh that was a new sensation. My anal area was quaking. I felt energy flowing all over and trying to escape out of the tips of my ears and eyebrows. I experienced many other thoughts and feelings everyone has described in Super O experiences.


Eventually after an hour or so of this roller coaster ride, I gave in to the contractions. This brought on a different set of O's that were better than usual.


I have left out many details, as I'm sure most of you have heard them before. But, I am left with with a couple questions now!


1. Have I just not understood contractions after all these years? I thought they were involuntary, but how could they be if I was able to suppress them?


2. I have read all the posts here for years so it's not like I need to read the Wiki again.....Is the inner quaking and aneros pulsing what some refer to as contractions?


I am obviously not complaining about where my journey has taken me, but would greatly appreciate any input on my experience. I know many of you have such great advice to offer, but I have never felt worthy enough to ask. 🙂