The last 2 years.

I meant 2 years ago at the end of post.

Any suggestions on how to stay relaxed & not think about what happened 3yrs ago & end up chasing the O???

Hey Aneros72, welcome to the forum! Lately I made an experience that might help you.

When lying in bed enjoying some Aless moments with first involuntaries I refused to join in and tried to be as passive as possible, quite even withstand a bit or let's say try to calm down them. Thus the involuntaries subsided faster than with taking part but after some seconds they came back stronger than known before. But I stayed passive or let's say slightly withstanding. My gland seemed to take that as a challenge and after some more stop and go finally a super-O crushed over me. What always helped me on my journey so far was to do abolutely nothing in these quarter or half minutes when involuntaries subside and the gland takes the next run.

Thus all my super-Os came like breaking waves over me. I believe I must surrender totally and absolutely give up command, otherwise it will not happen. From the beginning until now I have to sooth my subconsciousness and declare I will do myself no harm and I am safe, if I don't want to block myself from success.

Do you vocalize your vibes?
To me vocalization always is a great help to locate my chakras involved and to focus on them and maybe direct the vibes within the circle described in Mantak Chia's "Mulit-Orgasmic-Man", aside Babara Carella's "Urban Tantra" the book that helped me most.

To go back to start and to be able to change focus I, too, found help in SR (semen retention, myself on day 41 today) and in hypnotic audio files like Shibby's (NSFW + addictive!).
Others found help in male chastity. Much more ideas you can find in Barbara Carellas "Urban Tantra", for example dancing, giggling and behaving like crazy.

I wish you success and good luck and all the fun you can imagine!

@SOwithoutAneros That is a wonderful way of describing how atleast my super Os happen. Its like you have to resist these fake decoy pleasures that are trying to lure you away from the real deal. Then suddenly they get so strong its unbelievable. You have to look at it as if you are resisting as well. Its still easier said than done, but so very true!

@SOwithoutAneros Its like you have to resist these fake decoy pleasures that are trying to lure you away from the real deal.

And it remains difficult to distinguish one from the other! @Tatornator, thanks for your approval! I'm very glad about your confirmation. It's still easier said than done, but sometimes it's quite difficult to describe the experiences, too. The more I'm thankful for your feedback. Good vibes!