So close, how do I break my mind barrier

I've been using aneros on and off for a few years now. I had some minor success but nothing crazy and life altering... until few days ago when I was using my Helix tident and something clicked. I went through the intro video from mindgasm (great website) and while the session was enjoyable and pleasant, not a sign of a super O. Few minutes later, while I was resting I felt a bit of a contraction, and a slow wave of flutter/rocking motion all on its own (without me having to contract). This slowly cleared my mind, and sent a light vibration through my entire body, as my body relaxed more. This is when I felt "omg is this happening, this feels different and amazing and I didn't want it to stop, and as soon as I thought that, it stopped. As soon as I felt the first wave of pleasure, and ready to be taken for a wild ride, the ride has dissipated, and the warmth, vibration, pleasure, everything slowly seeped. 
Then Again, slowly I felt the pleasure being built up in my prostate, my belly, my head. A small wave of pleasure hit me, and when I thought "omg it is back, it is happening again" the pleasure dissipated again. 

I was wondering if anybody had experience something similar, I feel like there is a sort of a mental block and I can't fully relax, and just "accept" the intense pleasure wave. I feel like I was so close of what everybody is talking about, and writing this, thinking about it gets me in the mood. How can I break this barrier to enter the super orgasm realm