Self Pep Talks and vocalizing

I’ve been doing prostate pleasure almost every week now for the past few months.  I have a routine down where I set up a full length mirror against the wall near the bed and set up whatever pillows and towels for propping myself where I need the support.  Get everything ready as far as cleaning the aneros device(s) and getting the lube ready etc.  During this time I already feel the anticipation building, my heart racing, and a bit of euphoria just knowing what is about to happen.  This is a real helpful part of the whole process.  

Once things get going I try to take on the relax and breath approach.  Everything is really slow and I just enjoy not having anything really going on ‘down there’.  Once in a while I open my eyes to look at myself in the mirror.  I enjoy the rise and fall of my belly as well as the heaving of my chest.  I like to avoid nipple stimulation until later since I find that kicks things into high gear.  Holding off and the angst from waiting makes it worth it when I do touch them.  But I’ll graze my fingers over my belly button or rub my inner thigh.  

One of the things that I find really fun is the self pep talks I’ll give myself that come randomly to mind.  whatever feels like a turn on at the time.  Sometimes phrases like “this is going to be great” or “you’ve been wanting this for a long time now and now it’s about to happen”.  It’s like a self fulfilling prophecy that usually delivers.  Once I feel like things are warming up I’ll start to make the contractions or whatever feels nice at the time nice and slow at first.  I’ll find myself naturally increasing speed and I’m starting to be aware of what my body wants more and more.  Fast will be good for a while and then slow and cycling through just going with what feels right.  At some point little pangs of pleasure will happen that’ll jolt me into vocalizing audible moans and groans.  I think this helps a lot as I feel like the feedback mechanism for bringing on more arousal and therefore turning up the volume of the prostate pleasure.  Usually shortly after I’ll enter the trance like state where I feel the pleasure getting closer to the peak.  That’s about when I’ve been rubbing both nipples with my thumbs or just starting to.  That extra bit is really always what does it for me.  I’ll sometimes rate my orgasms too and give myself credit (hence self pep talks).  Positive thinking goes a long way.  If I think it was a mini I’ll tell myself “wow, that was a mini one I had but it still felt great”.  After that I’ll self talk myself into maybe having some large ones by continuing with what I was doing.  It honestly really does help.   As I start up again, I’ll say “Ok, I think a big one is coming” and sure enough I’ll usually go into a really powerful O.  I don’t know if it would qualify as a super-O per se.  There was a time I laid down on my back slightly arched after a while, the aneros was in and propped against a thicker pillow and I was just pounding on it up and down so much that I just almost blacked out and the world was humming.  I screamed so loud I was scared the neighbors were going to hear me.  That’s about as close to what I think was a super-O. But I am extremely grateful for all the Os and the various “sizes” I’ve had.  The whole thing is amazing.  Counting them is a turn on to and telling myself “wow that felt so good, you just had 6 orgasms in a row”.  

I have a natural built in abstaining from using the toys due to my work schedule but I like that too.  Of course the desire builds up and I can’t wait to have another session.  But time away makes it all the more amazing.  Some weeks I’ll get to fit in 3 days in a row of great prostate play.  

Those of you out there, if you’re frustrated with progress or anything try encouraging yourself and taking delight in the small “wiggles” or little things that feel good.  I think the more you commend yourself for what is happening the more the door will open to bigger and better experiences for prostate play.