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So a few days ago I posted on chat about how I couldn't sleep because of energy going up my spine.

Well, it isn't going away. I don't really generally feel or notice it when I'm just going about my day, but when I try to go to sleep it gets very loud.

The other night, I was not able to fall asleep until 5am! I had to be up for work at 6! So needless to say, I don't like it. Sleep is always something I am afraid to loose because I always had problems falling asleep as a boy, and I was just finally getting a handle on it!

So I am freaked out. I can't seem to stop it. I feel stupid as well. Because a few days before this all started, there was someone who was having the SAME problem as me, except far worse, and I was basically like "Just deal with it until it goes away naturally". Now, I feel so dumb, because it seriously is reaaaaaaallllllllllyyyyy scary not having control of something so simple like sleep.

It feels like there is just a buzz in my spine that travels to my head. It doesn't go away until I manage to fall asleep, which is not guaranteed to happen.

I've been trying to get the energy out of my head by channleing it thru my tounge into my stomach, but I don't think that I am doing it correctly, so maybe that is part of it.

I just want my body the way it was before. Sorry to dissapoint guys. But I really am scared.


   
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You've tried all the home remedies, right - warm milk, warm bath, melatonin, jerking off, valerian, etc. How many nights have you been without sleep? Can you take naps during breaks? I don't know much about energy work but I do work in a sleep lab and see how anxious people get without sleep. It's a natural response and isn't a problem unless sleep deprivation is chronic. So you have a long way to go without sleep for that. The symptoms will go away when you resume sleeping. I know it's easy for me to say except that working nights, I have to change my sleep hours around often and therefore get sleep deprived regularly and know how unpleasant it is. I've learned how to hide my sleep deprivation well but it's no substitute for feeling rested. Your immediate need is to get more sleep, even a few hours more each night until you're back to normal. Maybe some of the energy gurus here can give you a handle on even just lowering the volume enough to get some more sleep.


   
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Well, I did fall asleep at a normal hour last night. Its just the fact that I still have these energies that scares me.

I could never understand this before, but I just do not want to feel this. Right now, I would choose the certainty in saying 'I will never have multiple orgasms', than not knowing what's going on.

Please have patience guys. Its seriously scary


   
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I was getting scared b/c of uncontrollable involuntaries that occurred for a couple days at a time. I was freaked out. I'm taking a break from Aneros use for now, but I'm finding I can turn these on and off by thinking, and getting to near orgasmic states by thinking alone. After just a couple weeks since I experienced this loss of control, I'm now in a place where I feel comfortable with my ability to control things. I know it's terrifying at first, but just ride it out and calm your scary thoughts. When you come out of it you might find yourself at a much higher level of progress.


   
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Sounds like maybe anxiety is playing a role her also. Hopefully you can find a way to calm yourself. Have you thought about exercise? Run yourself into the ground working out, I'm sure that would help falling asleep. I know how you feel though, I have sleep apnea and have spent a lifetime (seems like it) dealing with the fear of having to go to work exhausted everyday. Things were so bad a few years ago that I would eat my lunch in the car and spend my lunch hour sleeping LOL. These days its a little better under control but I drive for work alot and the anxiety really kicks in when I dont sleep good knowing I have to drive somewhere the next day.


   
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I think I'll do some serious excercize today.

So to ground to the earth, exactly what do I need to do? Can you please explain?

Sit outside.
Imagine energy flowing out of my perinum?

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Also, I think I may have unknowingly been doing the sky one before. So I'm going to try and get this energy out of me.


   
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@mmo_rpglol trust me when I say I was you a few months ago. I mean I thought I was going crazy. I work with kids and it was worst for me. I was constantly hard, always pouring pre cum.I mean it was bad. Horny 24 hours a day. I missed two days of work cause I had to ride out the waves.

But what stopped it I think for me was stop riding and jacking for a day for me. My first 4 days of not riding or edging or cumming really calmed me down. My breathing became back normal and the hardness slowed down. It may not work for you but try to back away from all thins erotic. Porn, aneros, sex, jacking off. What ever arousals you stop it. It may help you.


   
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@bigoluver are you saying I SHOULD jack off or SHOULDNT? I would imagine hacking off would help cool it down


   
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Just a thought, go outside and put your bare feet on a patch of grass and dirt. I remember I read that somewhere, to "ground energy".


   
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jack off. pack the aneros far away. dont go on the forum. exersice.. get drunk.. est junk food.. hang with friends. its all in your head 🙂 really!


   
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I stop jacking for a week then after that week the next explosion was enough to keep me sedated my hornyness for a very long time thats why i stretch out my wet orgasms weeks between


   
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Yeah I have been more successful in grounding the energy lately. I believe the problem was that I was always trying to bring the energy up, instead of down to the ground. I have been channeling the energy down to the earth. I DEFFINITLY feel much less tension in my spine now.

Still not perfect though. Still fears in my background of my mind.


   
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Thanks for the input AneRico.

I know even though I was expecting the energy, it STILL caught me off guard with its power.

Kundalini energy is not something I care to get involved with. For religious reasons, and also the fear of playing with something I know is way out of my league to deal with if something goes awry.

I think I'm going to keep with my grounding excercizes, and regular ejaculation until I feel relatively back to normal.

If it gets any worse, I may go to an acupuncturist to get a second opinion.I am also going to set up an appointment with a chiropractor today to help with my back problems.

I'll keep everyone posted.


   
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It's possible you have a pinched nerve. See a chiropractor.


   
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Also. You said you read an article about someone having similar symptoms and having this right after. It's possible it could be psychosomatic. As I began feeling some slight spine tingling myself due to fear of it happening to me. The mind is incredibly powerful. Continue to realize it'll do you no harm and will go away. Try grounding if you feel you need to.


   
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Hi all.

So I feel MUCH better. I am not freaking out any more!! Also, my sleep has returned to regular. So OK, I was definitely overreacting.

That is VERY possible. I realize I have to completely work on my fear of losing control before I work on any more of this.

I WAS NOT prepared to lose control in the way I did, and that gave me a REALLY bad 'trip' if you will.

If you don't have that fear, you should be fine.


   
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I hope you continue to share. You have experiences that are worth passing on.

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glad to hear everything is back to normal >:D<


   
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@xileh yeah definitely. At the height of my being freaked out, I was getting ready to throw away all my massagers and delete my account. I will stay a member if for no other reason, to help out other people who go thru the same thing as me.

@ineverknew well see how this pans out. Now that I'm thinking clearly I don't know if I'm ever gonna pick back up with aneros.

I need to learn more about myself and my fears before I can make this plunge.


   
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@MMO_RPGlol, well whatever you decide to do I wish you health and happiness! Live long and prosper!


   
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This is just my opinion, so I hope I don't offend you or anyone else on here. Your problem is this energy, spiritual stuff. Approach the aneros as a sex toy. It's not for a spiritual experience, or meditation or any of that. It's to feel prolonged orgasms. That's it... For those that have that approach and love it, hey that's cool for you. As for you MMO_RPG, it sounds like you are getting involved with stuff that's out of your comfort zone. My suggestion if you go back to the aneros... Think about hot sex, and enjoy the ride. Once your done blow your load and call it a day.


   
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Hi @MMO_RPGlol,

I agree with @jja on the Aneros. The Aneros or Pro-State was originally invented as a medical device to promote good prostate health. It very soon became a sex toy. That is how I approach the Aneros in my sessions. Not only does it massage and exercise my prostate and anal musculature, but it just gives me tons of fun and pleasure.

There are times when my sessions are interrupted for one reason or another. Such interruptions may last several days or a week. But the wonderful thing is that I am so eager to get back to the Aneros. So is my prostate. The first session back for me is always amazing with new and exciting result! So brief "vacations" away from Anerosing may be helpful for you.

If you have awakened the Kundalini, you have awakened what the Hindus call the Serpent energy. Treat the Serpent with respect. Ideally this energy should go up your spine to your crown chakra for enlightenment and wholeness. Taking classes in Kundalini Yoga may help you and enhance your Aneros sessions.

I suspect that you are in your twenties which may put you at an advantage for a lifetime with the Aneros. I salute you because you seem well on your way.

Finally being grounded in your sessions and having a life outside of sessions is essential.

Thom./BigGlansDC


   
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MMO, you say: "I WAS NOT prepared to lose control in the way I did, and that gave me a REALLY bad 'trip' if you will" Many of us are afraid of losing control, especially when the experience is new like yours. You've taken a step by identifying, acknowledging and dealing with that experience of fear of losing control. I'm glad to hear you did. I'm also st that stage of fear of losing control. My path was to identify my emotions that are blocking my way, feel them sufficiently to heal them. (see https://community.aneros.com/forum/discussion/comment/57801#Comment_57801) Your situation sounds differed from mine superficially because your fear manifests as energy up your spine but maybe it's not so different to deal with. I'm blocked at an emotional level which manifests as muscle tension and has something to do with my early sexual experiences, I think. You say you've learned how to ground yourself with various ways and I'm glad you are back. But in my experience feeling my emotions is the most direct and complete way to ground myself. It's something we're all familiar with but may not know how to access them when needed. As men we're taught to ignore emotions so we're at their mercy. Fear can feel like a lot of things to different people and in different situations. I'm don't know much about energy and how to live with it in a cooperative relationship which is what I'm hearing from here is the way to go. But I do know that shaking my body, chattering my teeth and thinking about what I'm afraid of, gradually makes the fear more accessible and begins to heal the cause of the fear. Sometimes I have to cry or rage or laugh too along with the shaking. When the emotions have passed, if I've resolved the problem, I feel like a thunderstorm has passed and the sky is blue and sunny again.

I recommend this approach because it's something we all know from our childhood and it's our body's way of dealing with stress. Even if it didn't get rid of the unpleasant sensations of energy, your fear of losing control would be diminished and you could deal with the other better.


   
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@MMO_RPGlol

My experience with loss of control a couple weeks ago scared me bad too. I waited a week and tried the aneros again and felt another loss of control, but only lasted half as long. Then I waited a couple more days and tried the aneros every couple of days for short sessions and felt back in control. Then last night I did an hour and a half session and had the most amazing whole body orgasm I didn't think was even possible. For a few hours afterward I was feeling the aftershocks of residual energy and the continuation of involuntaries. I was slightly concerned but I was able to go to sleep and it went away. The next time this happens you will better know how to deal with it, and it won't seem as scary. My suggestion is to take a break and ease back into it in small doses until you build your confidence and comfort level. After the extreme pleasure I experienced last night I can't imagine giving it up at this point.


   
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"It's not for a spiritual experience, or meditation or any of that. It's to feel prolonged orgasms. That's it..."

@jja - no offense at all, it's an interesting statement. If you follow the discussions and chat long enough, you may realize that some men are experiencing more than just the physical manifestation of orgasm. Since it is widely accepted that an orgasm is mostly mental, it seems reasonable that Aneros use can lead us to previously unexplored experiences. Some have combined their Aneros use with complimentary practices such as the various forms of meditation, extending the possibilities of each. Our combined experiences seem to suggest that we are playing with more than just a toy.

Your post brings up an interesting topic for the group - opinions?

Xileh


   
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@MMO_RPGlol
Honestly, the biggest problem here in my opinion is just plain anxiety. ineverknew already mentioned it.
Because I, too, have experienced forms of anxiety after a ride. When I'm done with a session my body seems to be loaded with some sort of energy or chakra (might be the kundalini energy) which prevents me from falling asleep. It's a weird feeling. My head feels light and floaty, like I'm kind of nauseous or high. And when I really become anxious during this state, I begin to lightly hallucinate and see scary stuff or feel like my body is floating away or I'm losing my mind, or whatever; which fuels my anxiety more! But when I realized that the real problem was the anxiety and not the energy, I felt really relieved. Now whenever I feel a lot of energy (regardless of being anxious) after a session, I just try to put my mind on something else or do a little exercise before I attempt to sleep. It really works for me. Now, of course, this is my personal experience and I can't know for sure you have the same issue. Maybe you really do have some kundalini energy related problem which I'm certainly no expert in! So I might be very wrong. It's just my best guess.
However I wish you luck in your journey and hope you will find peace!
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