Paingasm

I had a strange new experience last night that I think is worth sharing.

I have Crohn's Disease. In my case that means I sometimes get painful abdominal cramps. As you can imagine this has a frequent impact on my sessions. When I get cramps that's a signal that it's time to take the Aneros out.

Last night I went for a session. I had some fantastic sensations with many dry orgasms and even a mild super-o. 30 minutes or so in I began to get cramps that normally would spell the end of the session. I was very much enamored in the submissive mindset so I decided to "embrace" the pain in a way, hoping it would pass. They got pretty painful, but I was still having p-waves. I let it continue until I began having a super-o. In my whole pelvic region and my gut I wasn't sure if it hurt or felt good, blurring the line between pain and pleasure. The rest of my body felt very good as the orgasm was full-bodied. Many waves of shivering orgasmic bliss rolled over my body with intense pain still radiating throughout the lower portions of my abdomen. The pain actually felt really good but bad at the same time.

In a way it was almost like a forced orgasm in that I felt utterly powerless and just let it happen even though I wanted it to stop. I probably could have stopped it myself, though that didn't really enter my mind. I was being completely submissive. It was kind of scary. I want to stress to you guys that I felt completely helpless, like I had no choice but to let it happen. And it was actually really sexy. I found myself thinking, "I'm such a slut for enjoying this" even though I don't normally have those kinds of thoughts. I do enjoy being submissive but I've never abandoned my masculinity like that. It felt really degrading. After about a minute of cumming I finally started to come down. I still had substantial p-waves going, but the pain got to be too much so I ended the session and went straight to the bathroom.

So that's my story I guess. Tell me what you all think and thanks for reading.