Need a little insight

Hi @Tatornator, I agree to you and would say, you have picked up the scent and are just finding the track, congrats! I think you got your first p-waves and some little unvoluntaries. From now on I only can suggest that you restrain your desire and get accostumed to the loss of control that is needed to let the unvoluntary motions take over. But that is only my understanding. To me it seems as if my prostate sends out encoded commands to my muscles that help it with hardly noticable massage to charge with sexual energy. This energy it soon will send out in waves again. Between those waves you will fully relax and feel that nothing happens. It may become quite a little boring. But now it depends on your patience and endurance, whether your prostate can entirely take over command and help you to the next level. Listen to your gland, hold it like a raw egg, as if you would try to perceive any little sound coming from inside. Of course you can give it a gentle knocking from time to time, but high expectations and desire can kick you off your path in a sudden while letting go will pave your way. Good vibes, hope you will succeed to find your way and keep the track!
P.S.: When I feel those unvoluntary muscle tensions I slightly support those movements but I always try to hold back a little as if to get my surfboard on the wave. Oh my god, meditating about this, feeling deeply inside me and concentrating on these feelings just now gave me a sudden super-o, ..., no an un-be-lie-vable series of super-os, sitting on my chair winding, squirming and writhing in sexual bliss. I am fully overwhelmed by this, sitting here in jeans and shirt with a raging hard-on bulging my jeans, all that without any other stimulation or foreplay. Wow!

Hey @Tatornator,

letting go is definitely one of the most important keys. BUT: there is no such thing as the key. If there was, there wouldn't be a need for this forum. We would just share the key™ to newbies and done. Unfortunately everybody has his own, very unique path to walk down.

Regarding this topic, what helped me the most was:

• to consider an aneros-session as an relaxation tool rather than an orgasmic tool (ecstasy ≠ adrenaline)
• to consider letting go as surrender (This can get scary when it unfolds - like entrusting you life. Imagine to surrender to so/sth. who cares and loves you. This may even release some old mental trauma, but enables healing in the course of doing so.)

Cheers, Unfug

Haha thanks guys, I really appreciate it. I'm not too terribly new with and I've had many great experiances thus far, but for about 2 months now, untill this weekend, I've been in a HORRIBLE dry spell. So its been difficult for me to go back to how things used to be, I'm finding I have to re-learn quite a few things. What helped the most in regaining my self controll was abstaining from ejaculation for 3 weeks. I try not to expect to much and frankly, I've probably been expecting too little recently. I almost lost the path...

In regards to the 'key' thing, I meant it more as a tool to use further down. I don't want to sound too hasty or anything, that just spells disaster.

I really appreciate the comments guys, keep 'em cuming!

You know unfug, I just reread your post and I really love the surrendering thing. I'll try making that a mental goal, see what happens. Sounds fun xD