my "truth" about aneros

Ive focused on aneros for close to seven years now. Ive had my ups and downs. Anyway a little about me and why i haveto post this. Ever since istarted masturbating like 12ish ive never had an orgasm. It always felt as if i was lining up gears to finish my load making the whole ordeal stressful and unseccessful with a partner wbich is why i got into aneros because i needed to believe there was more to myself than i could figure out. Well. Ive been married for 5 years now and i finally broke down and told her to focus on a hand job and i was in her complete control. For close to an hour she worked me over and it was life changing she made me have 4 orgasms 1 super O and a massive ejaculation. She actually made me have a super O It was so strong i made the dogz bark and i was seeing images of my MGX which i hardly use anymore. I honestly feel wierd ive never been able to just let go before. I really wana talk to her but now i feel like a flippin teenager around her. Anyway no questions to ask. Not starting a topic. Just a random life blerp that i cant share with irl friends or family due to its nature. And if by chance theres another guy like me out there. Im telling you there is hope. There is someone. Some way of making you break and surrender. Im not talkin of busting a nut im talking completly owning you.if your with someone talk to them. Tell them to take over. As for aneros related i do fully believe its because of years and years of PC and body training i was able to seperate my ejaculation from my orgasms so keep doing them it pays off