Is smaller better ?

Hi all,

I have own several massager and they vary in size and shape. I do have the peridise set (beginner one) and I've been using almost exclusively the bigger one, actually I haven't gave the smaller one much thought ever since I opened the package several months ago.

Then a couple of weeks ago I was looking at the smaller one and told myself "hey, what the heck" so I lubed it up and inserted it. Now this was during a masturbation session. You see I really enjoy masturbating while I have an a massager inserted in my anus. I guess it must be part of my rewiring because ever since I started doing that the "connection" between my penis and my prostate has grown significantly. I know that I should not think of my penis if I want to achieve O's but at the very least I consider the newly found awareness of the connection to be a step in the right direction.

Back to the peridise then. Well, something very cool happened. As I was slowly masturbating the "pillar of pleasure" was activated BIG TIME. I call "pillar" the column of pleasure that forms from the prostate to the penis gland. The pleasure was 50/50 meaning that half of it was from the prostate and the other half from the penis.

Needless to say it was very pleasurable. I masturbated ever so slowly because the pleasure was so intense that ejaculation was but a tiny stroke away. As I did that the pleasure was transformed into a radiated wave that started to affect the whole groin area. My mind went muddled and I totally lost track of time.

Ever since I started to toy with prostate play I went from leaking a bit of precum to now belonging to the heavy leaking category but this masturbating session with the small peridise catapulted me into a place where the leaking becomes constant.Now ever since that day when I do another session like this the result is the same so I am pretty sure this wasn't a fluke.

Thing is though is that this peridise is a LOT smaller than any other model I currently own which leads to my question, for some folks is smaller the better?

Another thing that helped raise this question is that now I have reached a stage where I totally feel comfortable probing my anus with 1 or 2 fingers. Thanks to genetics I inherited my mother hands so they are quite small and my fingers are fairly short. Still I am able to reach my prostate and I must say it feels like it is a lot closer to the rectum than I've seen depicted in diagram, not to mention a lot bigger than a walnut or almond.

So, mix the pleasure I got from the small peridise to the probing that led me to realize that it is very close to the rectum and I now am incline to believe that all my other models are simply missing the mark...

Would that conclusion be an illusion or do any of you belong to the same ballpark and found out that smaller/shorter is better?

Thanks for your input,

Phil