Internal War

Hi All First Post here I Go,
I baught My First Anerous In 2006 I was 21 It was the MGX. I used it four about a month, I had little sucess but that was my own fault I was trying to force a superO. I then started to get a fealing of filt about my self during my working. I can only describe this fealing as me being some kind of sex craxed werdo. This fealing got so strong that I had to dispose of the Aneros. I forgot about the hole thing for a Year or so untill I stumbled across a video of the new Progasm on Utube. I then taught of noting ellce for the next 2 months untill I went and baught the Progasm. When it arived I used it for about a week but the fealing of Dirt came back stronger then ever so with little sucess with the aneross I put it away in the loft I once again forgot about the Aneros for a year one day whill in the loft I rembered the Aneros I dug it out from my hiding spot Used it that night As usual had no sucess (trying way to hard for super O) that morning I keep thinking I was a sex manic like the kinda people you see on cheep Porn. These fealings got so strong I once again desposed of the Aneros. Its now been about a few months and I have been reading a huge anount of this forum and think I understand where I have been going wrong but what I don't understand is the fealings I get when not using the device. I realy want to buy the helix and Try my new aproch but can't help but think the fealings are going to come back and destroy the hole experence.
Any help guys ?