HeartGasms = constant head pulsing/energy

I hate starting another Kundalini thread but I really think
what I am feeling is related to this damn awakening or do all aneros users feel
it? Let me back up a bit and tell my
story. It took roughly three weeks of
meditation to have my first super O.
Once I felt it, I sought it day and night. Only now looking back do I understand the
folly of my behavior. The super O
started in my stomach. My stomach
muscles kept involuntarily flexing deeper and deeper with every breath. It was an odd feeling in that I can’t
reproduce that flexing feeling by simply flexing my stomach muscles. It felt as if there were a million little
cables all lined up in parallel across my stomach and with every breath they
kept ratcheting tighter and tighter. I
knew something was about to happen and then it released in this energy coursing
through my entire being. WOW! I wanted more so naturally I sought out that
odd tightening of the stomach until it released… over and over and over. I kept it up every day for about two
months. I honed in my meditation and
letting go to really advanced levels. Instead
of keeping even a tiny amount of pressure with my anal muscles, I learned that
if I truly applied zero pressure and zero control that the pleasure and
contractions went to much greater levels.
Letting go completely and reaching a deep meditative state, I purposely
denied the super O. My thoughts were
that there was another higher level and that the release through the odd
tightening of the stomach muscles was somehow defusing the buildup. I mentally tried to send the energy up to my
head. I know what you are probably
saying.. how do you send energy to your head?
When you get in that zone you can control it. Anyway, my focus was no longer on the aneros
or the feelings of my anus or prostate.
It was on this buildup of energy in my head and chest. With every dance of the aneros my chest and
head kept getting more and more higher with this feeling of ecstasy. Then I reached this quiet moment of
bliss. For a split second I thought the
buildup was over and there was not going to be a release… BAM. The aneros shot out of me and my whole body
was rocked over and over. My heart and
head had an orgasm. I squirted with
every explosion. Initially, I thought I
peed myself. It did not smell like urine
but had the slippery consistency of clear precum except that it wasn’t oozing. It was squirting. F’n brilliant it was. The bliss and other worldly feeling that
followed was freaking EXACTLY like MDMA (from my college days some 15 years
ago). I now can get that heartgasm on
demand and I love it. Here comes the
Kundalini part. I now have this
permanent pulsing feeling of energy in my head.
It didn’t start out that way. At
first it was more like anxiety in my chest and every time I lay down to sleep I
would start orgasm’ing. I couldn’t stop
it. Then there were times I woke in the
middle of the night with a sustained hot flash.
I broke the no sleep/anxiety cycle with Valium. The look on the Doc’s face will forever be
priceless when I told him why I wasn’t sleeping. I am now at a state where I don’t aneros
during the week and save it for the weekend.
I’m sleeping now so that is good.
Yet, this energy in my head won’t go away. It can be very blissful at times and it
actually helps me to focus at work. Still
though- . had no kids and a house to
myself. Good god I heartgasm 20 times
today. I think I am going to regret it
come slit won’t go away. My blood
pressure remains a bit high now as well.
So, would anybody like to give their two cents on aneros use and energy
pulsing in one’s head and with what I think is a correlated higher blood
pressure? BTW, today I had no kids and a
house to myself. Good god, I heartgasm
20 times today. I think I am going to
regret it come sleep time.