Finally, satisfaction

Hello all,

For a little background I am one of the younger members on this forum. I am almost 19, started using Aneros at 18 and started prostate play at about 16. I'm happy to report that after three years I am satisfied.

I'm currently lying in bed after my most successful session ever. So successful, in fact, that I wouldn't be disappointed if this was the "end of the road," though I expect there is more to come and I know this journey doesn't have an end. About two hours ago, I popped 8 Damiana pills (this is common practice for me, idea courtesy of Darwin), and climbed in bed with my Helix Syn in. I also went into this session with the goal of trying soft palette nursing (again, idea courtesy of Darwin). I did try it but I don't know if it had any direct correlation with what just happened. All I know is that whatever I did, it worked.

Some time toward the beginning of the session, I had an epiphany as I was doing some contractions: I had always been thinking of any and all pleasure I got as waves. These waves seemingly had a discernible peak and a discernible end. I realized that this was flawed thinking: if I focused hard enough, I would notice that, though the level of pleasure fluctuated, the pleasure typically wouldn't entirely vanish, but rather exist at a somewhat smaller level, as long as I didn't dismiss it and decide the wave was "over" or "on its way out." With this thinking, I successfully held on to one of the earlier waves and, simply by concentrating on feeling what there was to feel and not trying to increase it, I rode it to a pretty decent peak.

Now that was all well and good, but I had had more success in the past, so all alone it was nothing special. However, by keeping that same attitude in mind, of never dismissing a pleasure wave and simply feeling what was there, however small, I rode a later wave (took about 30 min) to an incredible climax. This was accompanied by various seizure-like motions and clenching anal muscles. 15 minutes later, it happened again, and as soon as I reached the bottom a new one started, leading to a smaller climax. In short, it was awesome. I look forward to doing this again! If this was all aneros had to offer, I'm finally at the point where I'd be okay with that.

Now, here's a list of some things that I think helped me:
1. That epiphany I mentioned above was key. Don't dismiss the pleasure before its gone, and simply feel what's there. Honestly simply retaining a small level of pleasure is extremely enjoyable.
2. Do not get caught up in semantics. Early on I decided that I would never classify any of the sensations I was having as Super-O, mini-O, or otherwise. It's so easy to get lost in questioning "what is this" that you miss it. This is the reason I'm not calling tonight a super o. I take these for what they are: really wonderful feelings.
3. Do not pursue the orgasm; let it happen to you. Live in the moment. This is easier said than done but it should be a goal.
4. Sounds. I like listening to stuff when I aneros. Today I listened to "Ooze" and "Leak" from a thread calls the aneroid audio experiment.
5. This may sound odd, but don't get too caught up with involuntary contractions. Early on I lusted after them, and though they're nice (I've had them once), they are not necessary for a great experience. Tonight I didn't have them and it was wonderful.

And that's pretty much it! I hope others can use my experience to reach a similar place, and I hope to revisit it someday!