can't separate aneros sessions frm mastur-

Glad to be on board, I've had a helix for about a yr., no intercourse for 15yrs or so, on hormone replacement therapy for the last 5yrs, haven't been able to get an erection by myself for the last several yrs, could barely get a hard on aided by a naked blonde, and sometimes that didn't last. Levitra, Cialis kinda worked, but I found the stuffy nose, headache and killer heartburn not worth it. anyone who has spent time stroking a limp dick knows it's the ultimate frustration. (well, come to think of it, it's 2nd. having a naked blonde stroke a limp dick is 1st.) About 15 months ago I had a biopsy come back w/pre-cancerous cells, (high grade pin cells) I determined to reverse the situation. I found 2 things w/the aneros pretty quickly-1. it's impossible for me to get an erection with it in, and 2. it doesn't matter. it was a complete revelation being able to ejaculate w/ a flaccid dick. I understand & agree that once you touch the penis, the rewire is over, but for me, being able to ejaculate trumps rewiring my neural network right now. I try to ejaculate 2 or 3 times a wk. (as opposed to 2-3 times a yr.!) I'm convinced that this is a big part of having the last 2 biopsys come back clear. Questions-Will I ever be able to have a hard on with it in? (sex either?) I'm sure that if I could separate the two I would advance faster. So far I can do contractions for 15-20 min. max, and then I give in to the squirting (or rather flowing) part of the program. Last session for the first time I could feel it ( I now have a progasm also) rubbing against the front wall of my rectum as I squeezed. lube doesn't seem to be an issue, I think it's just the time spent exclusively w/the massager. Any suggestions are welcome. Thanx.