Can't get over the edge. Feel like I'm so close but anticipation killing progress.

You've got to stop the expectations. Just let your body and brain take you where it's going to take you. You're not expected to have the same experience as everyone else. What you're feeling at every moment is perfect and meant to be. Your sexual energy will walk you through the process at the speed it needs to. Just be humble in its presence and trust it implicitly.

The thing that will kill everything is mentally to describe it, to think of words other people have used. These sensations and experiences do not need words or comment. Just live them, don't force them, let them be, let them become what they're going to be. You are simply a passenger enjoying the ride of your life.