8 months in - amazing sensations but so many questions.

Hello everyone, I am a long time lurker of this amazing forum and community. I’d be so grateful for some advice. 

As the title says, I’ve been at this for roughly 8 months and I’ve had 12 sessions in that time. I’ve had sensations of pleasure from the first session and I’ve definitely been getting some very nice p waves and sensations across my body in more recent sessions.

My sessions usually go like this, I usually edge for a little while first to get my prostate primed for the session, then I put the toy in (eupho syn trident) and go hands free while watching porn. I tend not to consciously contract, but my pelvic muscles are reactive and they clench a little to the presence of the toy, so I just follow that. Eventually this leads me to p waves where my penis usually becomes very hard and it often feels like I’m on the edge of some amazing orgasm that doesn’t quite come.

I also get what I’d call ‘systemic’ effects, which ars great because it’s unlike anything I get from my penis. Sometimes I can feel like I’m having a hot flush, sometimes it feels like a haze is decending over me. If I could picture that as an image, it’s like an intoxicating smoke is starting to consume my body. I’m not mystical, but I can see why people view this as a mystical process.

I’ve never reached orgasm with the aneros in, so after 2-3 hours I tend to take the toy out and finish manually. My penis tends to feel much more sensitive and approaching my traditional orgasm seems to invoke those ‘systemic’ effects, giving the traditional orgasm a much different flavour and sometimes a much better intensity too. 

I had my last session last night and for the first time, I abstained for 6 days beforehand. That helped so much. I also spoke to other users on Reddit and generally received the consensus that I need to relax into the sensations more and not tense up as much. I decided that I would follow my body’s natural tendency to tense the pelvic muscles, but consciously try to relax them after they tense and never clench hard if I can avoid it.

This ‘less is more’ approach definitely helped to add embers to the growing fire. I think in hindsight, clenching too tight has put that fire out prematurely, and clenching tighter when a p wave hits has been a big pitfall for me. One confusing thing for me is that I only get those buzzing involuntaries from hard clenching, so I’m unsure how the involuntaries work as a part of this for me - I wonder if they might kick in at some point for me with a lighter clench? 

It seems that in a good session, those pleasurable feelings and intoxicating effects drift by every once in a while, and I enjoy them very much when they do so. In the past I’ve latched onto them like ‘it’s coming now!’, but I tried my best to be mindful this time and avoid that pitfall. I felt like my approach was stoking the fire well, teasing my prostate. But I didn’t feel like it was quite leading to the intense build up I often get. It often feels to me - especially last night - that the spot is primed and ready it just needs the correct stimulation, of which I’m unsure how to give it - or whether I should give that spot my conscious stimulation at all. 

So in the last ten minutes or so of the session, I thought I’d experiment - what would happen if I consciously clenched, but only very lightly? Well it hit the spot perfectly. Such a sensitive spot, the pleasure really is unique. Almost every light clench hit it perfectly and it felt like each one was releasing that intoxicating feeling into my system. I usually only get ‘one’ of those feelings here and there in a session, here I was getting 5-10 in a row. It seemed like my spot was getting the stimulation it’s been craving, or at least much more like what it needs compared to what I’ve experienced before. But eventually it sort of didn’t continue building up. 

That was fine of course, I felt in an altered state and I still had p waves coming, but I took the toy out and finished manually as it had been 2 and a half hours. The traditional orgasm left me trembling for minutes afterwards. I actually just lay there laughing at how crazy it was. 

I’m loving my aneros journey so far, I think it’s a godsend for men who want to have more intense experiences, but I’m left with so many questions. Does anyone have any thoughts about what I’ve written? 

Also, apologies for the long post, but I just wanted to let this community know about the new doors that have been opened for me on this journey. It just keeps getting better. Thank you to everyone who contributes here.