As some of you may know, I have been spending a lot more time with my KSMO practice than with an aneros. Several have commented that would still like to track my progress. Since KSMO and Aneros are so closely related (both are oriented around creating non-ejaculatory MMOs), it doesn't seem like too much of an abuse of this forum to blog about KSMO here.
To bring everyone up to date…
I first started with KSMO about 2 months ago. The very first time I made the sound, I felt something. It was a very slight excited feeling in my stomach. I actually didn't expect to feel anything so I was surprised when I did. My progress has been fairly rapid. In these two months, I've gone from being able to generate p-waves with a loud sound to being able to generate super-o's with no sound at all (just using my mind). Of course, this happened in stages. First, I figured out how to make the sound quietly. Then, I found I was able to breathe as if I were making the sound but just imagine the sound in my head. Now I can "push" very intense feelings into my penis and groin with a thought.
I suspect my quick progress is just due to the way I'm wired. My aneros use was always accompanied by very intense aneros-less experiences. In fact, my aneros-less sessions were often much more intense than with an aneros. The same trend has continued with KSMO. I never had any orgasm with an aneros that was even 1/10 the intensity of what I've had with KSMO.
When I first started KSMO, I mostly followed the directions and avoided ejaculation until a day after a session. I didn't always succeed at this (esp. in the beginning). Lately, I've been having one session where I avoid ejaculating, then another one the next day where I finish with an ejaculation. I'm making steady progress so I'm not hung up about doing this. Let's face it, ejaculating is fun. However, I will admit that, lately, the orgasm that comes with ejaculation doesn't seem as intense as the others I have in the KSMO session that leads up to it. The release feels very good but the sensations aren't as strong. I'm actually very surprised to be discovering this. I had always expected the "regular" orgasm to be the strongest. Maybe this will change in the future, I don't know.
As for frequency, I tend to have 3-4 sessions a week. I try to skip a day in between each to give my body time to absorb what it learned in the previous session. But, sometimes my body has other ideas. Sessions last anywhere from one to three hours. Sometimes, I'll take a break or two in the middle of a session. It seems like this often lets me reach a higher level of arousal. After I take a break like this, I can usually get back to the previous level of arousal in a minute or two. It's really like I never stopped.
Most of the time, I have sessions in front of the computer while looking at porn. Purists might say that this is cheating. I don't really care. The visual stimulation helps things along so I do it. Sometimes, I will climb into bed or lay on the couch after my arousal level gets very high. In this state, it becomes pretty easy to maintain the arousal without looking at anything.
The feelings I get during a session are hard to describe. I usually get a tingling in my anus/groin and an insisting, almost burning sensation in my penis to start. Sometimes it feels like my penis will explode. Sometimes I also get full-body tingling. When I have an orgasm, the feelings build up just like a "regular" one and then reach a crescendo. It has a similar feeling to a regular orgasm except there usually isn't any penile or anal contractions. I do sometimes feel little fluttering contractions in my penis (almost like little twitches; nothing like the pumping contractions that accompany ejaculation) but not all the time. Often the orgasm causes me to lean forward (contract my stomach muscles) and grunt and pant. They also sometimes cause me to close my eyes and roll them back into my head. This usually causes a rush of feelings to shoot up my spine and into my head. When these orgasms get very intense, I end up closing my eyes, groaning/yelling and rolling my head around. It sometimes feels like the chair I'm sitting in is rocking back and forth or side to side. After these orgasms, if I completely relax, I can induce what people call a calm seas orgasm that washes a feeling of euphoria over my body that can last several minutes.
My orgasms seem to be changing almost every time I have a session. Lately, it feels like my body is experimenting with how to channel the orgasmic energy. It's like my body tries to send the energy out of my penis (an ejaculation?) but since I'm not headed towards ejaculation, it's not sure what to do. As recently as a week or two ago, the max intensity of these feelings was almost too much to bear. Now, I'm getting sensations shooting into my stomach and up into my chest which seems to make the penile sensations easier to tolerate. These feelings take my breath away. It feels like new pathways for this energy are being created in every session. I expect that as time goes on, it will become easier for this energy to travel around my body.
My latest session was this morning. It was the best yet. I had a phenomenal session for several hours last night. This morning, I was awakened by full-body tingling. This happens to me regularly. It seems like the half-sleep state of early morning is conducive to this. My experience is that when this happens to me, it kind of primes my body for a good session later in the day. This morning, it took me no more than a few minutes to start having dry-o's. I also had several super-o's that were the most intense yet. When I have a session at night, I don't sleep all that well so I'm a little tired today. As I type this, I'm feeling like I want to start up again. But, I should really get some sleep tonight.
One final tidbit…
Just a few days ago, I took the first step towards integrating KSMO into partner sex. My wife does not yet know of my KSMO practice and I'm not sure when I will tell her (a long story for another time). Anyways, we were casually messing around and she ended up giving me a hand job. While she was doing this, I focused my mind to try to conjure up some KSMO-like feelings. While they were very very subtle, I did feel something. Prior to ejaculating, I think I managed to have several very small mini-o's. Trying to create these feelings while being stimulated so directly was very difficult. And, to be honest, I'm not 100% sure that I wasn't imagining everything. We'll see how things play out in the future.
Sorry for the length of this. Future blog entries will likely be shorter.