Session 4

Yesterday afternoon, 1.5 hours
Relaxing and let it do its thing

Had some sustained auto-contractions, the massage smoothly massaging the prostate with each contraction, lots of leaking, a smorgasbord of new pleasurable sensations. It seemed the prostate was actually thumping this time. Stomach muscles fluttering and vague waves of pleasure through the body.

The urge the purge is still there, though less.
Also, massager is starting to come out on its own. I think my anal muscles were getting tired of gripping. And the big problem, anal canal kept drying too quickly which had me pausing frequently. I didn’t have so much trouble in the session before this one, and the only difference I can think is that I used a cushion to elevate my lower back to free up the K-tab. But that might have angled my pelvis so the coconut oil dripped out? I’ve got to figure this one out.

Outside session:
-Heightened arousal/easily aroused
-Stomach muscle twitched, especially lower stomach
-sudden onset of auto-contractions
-pelvic congestion similar to ‘blue balls’ but more diffuse throughout the pelvis.
-a subtle prostate massaging effect at the bottom of the exhale
-random buzzing, anus, head, root of penis, testicles
-And last night and this morning, a persistent hot flush around my shoulders, arms, chest, neck, face, inner thighs. It went away during the night but returned during morning meditation

Problems and Solutions:
1. P-tab soreness pressing against the perineum
Solution: I’ve been lubing the tabs which I shouldn’t have been doing so I hope that’ll solve that!
2. Again, the lube running dry or leaking out specifically on the sides of the anus walls toward the sphincter. I’ll have to do some research on this one.

Overall, a very pleasant time, and I’m still all warm and tingly the morning after. Now for a day or two break. It seems I’m making good progress, I’d better let it wire in.  🙂