Zoning out

So, I started this adventure last Oct or so and got some bad feelings about it pretty soon, so I left it alone until recently. I did enjoy some things at first but there were things that bothered me. Anyhow, I've been playing with it again and it's so much better. It's almost getting compulsive and I have to resist the urge to use anal devices which I have about 8-10 of. When I wake up in the AM with a semi hard on (old and ED) I want to use the Aneros devices, I've got a Helix Syn, MGX and Max and a Peridise in the drawer with some lube on the counter and jelly (boy butter on the way) in the drawer. But I've been hiding it from the wife, not wanting to bother her. But I talked to her tonight and explained what I was doing and she agreed that it wouldn't bother her if I did it. She never liked morning sex anyhow being a late person. At least she's accepting of this since our sex life is gone. I'm lucky to get her off with a vibrator once every couple months and forget a good hard on.

At any rate, the feeling I get now is VERY pleasurable, almost too much, but not to orgasm. I have to press with the sphincter hard to feel pleasure and hold it as long as the muscles will hold it. I also use it while I sit at the computer with some light porn, good looking babes to me sitting in an office chair, but I use devices that don't have those handles on them which dig into my body. I've also been noticing that after I use these things now and even while watching the young girl pics, I sort of zone out. I actually zoned out this evening and went upstairs out of the computer room and sat on the easy chair with a Jameson's and started really zoning out until we got into a light argument about bread for dinner. It was almost like weed but not as strong. But boy was it nice.

Just a report. I wish I could find some safe weed, I haven't had any since the 70's.

Dave