Years later, I realise my prostate might be numb

Having been using these devices on-and-off for around eight years now, they've definitely managed to bring amazing orgasms. Out of every toy, this brand does the trick regardless of mood, time of day and everything else.

Going into Aneros and anal play in general, my goal ultimately was to cum hands-free. It doesn't even have to be great orgasms. I just want to ejaculate without touching the tail.

It wasn't until usage of other toys and surveying on people's anecdotes that something didn't seem right — many pointed to distinct feelings when pushing a toy up there, one of which is a pleasurable feeling, like needing to pee. Somewhere that really "hits the spot". I get pleasurable feelings from the Aneros quite quickly, and it is within the pelvis region, but it's all scattered. The Aneros doesn't feel like it's actually touching anything in particular.

Curious, I'd occasionally use fingers to get in there and do the work myself, to try and see where this actual prostate is suppose to be. One time I found it with confidence, and really pressing in lent that need-to-pee irritation in the penis. (It's actually not the same as a bladder being full). It only made me more confused, however, because if the area has been massaged for so many years over time, shouldn't the prostate be awake and active? There isn't any sensations.

None of this would matter. It shouldn't matter. The Aneros still gives me a great time. Maybe sometime's I'll leak some precum. Maybe it'll be a meagre session.

And yet it does seem like my purchasing of the Helix Syn, MGX and Euphro don't amount to much because in hindsight, there's almost no difference between them in the outcome. Naturally, the paranoia wonders if that's down to the prostate getting no sensation from the toys to begin with. Notably, the girth of each should effect how the in-and-out motions feel, rather than being indistinguishable.

Boiling it down, I feel like there's sensations I'm missing out on, and perhaps always will, because my prostate just doesn't seem to have any itself. It also seem to be the dead-end for cumming, as many people point to the feelings of the prostate prior to ejaculating.