Wierd orgasm

Your experience is pretty much what happens to me and I don't use mushrooms or drugs.

How. How do i let myself free as i did on shrooms

When I first started to have prostate orgasms, the only thing I could possible relate to the event was a psychedelic experience; The prostate orgasm literally blew my mind. As you already know you can not truly enjoy a psychedelic experience without letting go and submitting to the event; the same rules apply to using your Aneros. When I had my fist prostate orgasm it blew me away and made me so excited to have another, so much so that it impeded my progress and took some time before I had another. Sounds like you are overthinking things a bit and just need to relax and let your body lead the way. Psychedelics could be useful as aids/training wheels while you progress along your journey, but you absolutely do not NEED them.

Ive always felt i was to mechanical with myself. I tried again last night with the psychedelic mentallity of just zoning out and i had more progress than i have had in years. I think im close to a breakthrough but its deffinitly the hardest thing ive ever had to do. Just letting go having fun and letting my brain and body lose control have always ben a challange for me

Congratulations! It appears that the mushrooms have, at least partially, brought things together for you. Perhaps your brain (on the shrooms) was able to finally make a connection between the sensations the Aneros has given you and that part of your mind that holds your arousal. Do you remember the first time you road a bike without training wheels? What a wonderful feeling of connecting your minds ability with your body. Good news is that once these connections are made they can be repeated again and again.

So, how do you repeat the connection? Shrooms are powerful at removing the boundary between your conscience and sub-conscience mind and in some cases the super-conscience. Without them, making the connection will require the ability to conscientiously open up to deep arousal that, for you, exists in your sub-conscience. Do you have dreams of being highly aroused? Dreams occur mostly in the sub-conscience but we can still remember them.

May I suggest a few sessions (with or without the Aneros) where you start with an affirmation that you WILL be aroused, just by deeply thinking about it. Begin in a very calm, relaxed state and transition to a dedicated focus on remembering the MENTAL arousal you felt on the shrooms. Exactly what did it feel like. It's a mind thing, like meditation. Remember, your mind is going to a wonderful place where it has been before. You don't have to blaze a new trail. Hope this helps.