Warning: Rambling ahead-->

So I have been on this journey a few years now.
Moderate luck but I have not been into it until recently.
The occasional super-t to enhance the regular-ts and now I am more looking at it as meditation.
It has been moving forward with almost every session which is great, i just need more of them.
I dont have many opportunities at the current moment, so when i do, i make them count.

This one just felt different from the moment i realized the stars had aligned and going to let me have a good, long interupted session.
When the time came to get ready, every movement had a feeling of pleasure.
From washing the tools, to setting up my lounge,
the shower, anema, everything was a deliberate act in order to heighten the experience that was to come.
I made sure think about what each step was doing, what it was for and how its making me feel.
Time, time my friends is crucial. I was able to take almost an hour or so get it all ready.

Well anyways back to the event.

I was able to have full use of the house, which is not always possible.
the recliner, the tv, i could be LOUD,
oh and i could toke up and not worry about it.

So i fire up the softcore on HBO, and put it on just loud enough to hear the subtle moans and such.
and as a visual stim, but i wanted to focus on breathing and the feelings that come from inside.

SO ya, things got to a good start, i got a hard and constant erection that just seemed to get harder as i let everything release and relaxed all my muscles and listening the aneros and the subtle sensations building up.

Let everything go, all expectations and just let time and feelings flow.

I found that wrapping my arms around my torso, with one fore arm above and below the belly button.
Having them there allowed me to keep better track of my breathing, and when i squeezed my arms like a hug, i felt like i was able to get some good feelings exploding from my abs and groin being almost guided through out the rest of the body.

Wow, i had never experienced this before.
I have a hard time even putting into words.
Just an extreme loss of self into a deep well of pleasure.
Almost too extreme. I knew it would be good but god damn.
I learned a lot about how my body handles extreme pleasure,
and the best part is that i think that this is may have been just a dry-o
well i shouldnt say just a dry-o, it was amazing,
and at several times i remember thinking "what the fuck is going on, what is happening,"
and then i would go under the surface of the pleasure well.
this happens at least once, maybe twice, well actually maybe three times.
Not quite peaking again like the first spike, the night wound down,
I finished in a super-t, not sure if i meant to, but i just ran my finger over the precum on the head of my super sensitive still rock hard erection, and well, KA-BOoM.

All in all. wow. i had expectations even though i know i shouldnt, but i will say this experience greatly expanded on the amount of pleasure i ever thought possible.
And squashed all expectations.
I felt different, the few moments after, a few hours later, a few days later,
even now
I feel somehow more in touch with something, not sure what.
I just feel like im on a slightly deeper level of consciousness.
I am not saying that it is anything really tangible
something subtle, extremely subtle.
as you can see i dont really know how to describe it.
but i can feel it.

I did my best to describe my experience.
There is plenty more i could ramble on about that experience.
But i wanted to open it up and ask a few questions.
Feel free to ask me anything.

Any ways.
So while in the middle of the above experience, i almost felt like i was hyper-ventilating.
I felt like my breathing was not shallow but i was breathing fast.
I experience an shaking in my vision too which makes me feel like i am right in thinking i was hyper ventilating.
But either way.
It was such a good learning session.
Am i on the right path thinking that i was hyper ventilating?
or was all that part of it.
I felt it in my lips too.
An almost numbness, around my lips and eyes.
I just know that i have hyper ventilated before and that had very little in common with what i had experienced the other night.

Also, what do you guys think about starting a session after working out?
I was running today with my dogs thinking i may have a chance to get a regular session, 1 to 1.5 hours
not like the other night which all told was 3 hours.
But anyways, i was focused on the thought of possibly having a session and my breathing and i got the idea that after i got home from the run, i would rest just long enough to get ready to insert,
allowing the endorphines released during then run to enhance the aneros.
Also because i was still breathing hard and deep and in rhythm from the run, it would be easier to maintain that pattern of breathing.
And i feel that being hot and cooling down my cause some form of stimuli.

just a thought.
i was hoping to try that out,
but i could not.
hopefully someday soon,
What do you all think?

Oh wow what a ramble.
Feel free to add your rambles.
Happy journeys all!
-E