Thoughts and impressions at the end of the 21 day challenge.

So, yesterday marked my 21st day without ejaculating. I didn’t set off with the intention of abstaining for 21 days it just sort of happened. I got to about day 14 without really missing it too badly, there were a few moments when I felt as if I might blow my lot I have to be honest, but they did pass. All along though my Aneros sessions were progressing well, I enjoyed many pleasures during that time. Not only while using my Helix Syn or Progasm Jr, Aless pleasure kept me happy during the times afterwards and I was feeling so energised and horny most days I thought I might as well go the full distance just for the experience. So last night the inevitable happened and I allowed myself to ejaculate. What I didn’t expect though was how strange it would feel to once again touch myself, at one point it didn’t even feel as if I was the one touching or if my penis even belonged to me. I know it sounds crazy but that’s how I felt, I would be interested to know if any others who have waited this long, or even longer, have had the same experience. Another thing that surprised me was, not how difficult it was to cum, but how long it took. I honestly thought that I wouldn’t last 5 minutes, that’s a good 3 minutes longer than normal on a good day :p It took well over an hour and certainly ratcheted up my expections. During this time I was curious to see that I was not producing any pre cum, usually during masturbation I produce some although nothing like the amount that flows during Aneros fun. I decided to try an experiment, for a while I ceased activity on my penis and turned my thoughts inward and imagined I had an Aneros inserted, performed a few contractions, got some shudders and pleasure waves, at the same time the tap was turned on and pre cum flowed, wild! Orgasm and ejaculation followed eventually, I didn’t produce as much cum as I thought I might, it felt good but also a bit, hmm, well that’s that. But it almost wasn’t, even as my penis was deflating I still felt as if I might orgasm again, not one to waste an opportunity, I continued to massage my waning erection and I was just on the edge of making it happen again, something that’s never happened before in my life. Sadly I just couldn’t quite sustain it and called it a night. On waking this morning I was hard straight away and decided to make sure the pipes had been flushed through properly. I have noticed how different I feel today compared to a night of orgasms with my Aneros. Post Aneros, I am feeling upbeat and in fine fettle, today I am just knackered and feeling down. It has been an interesting and revealing challenge. Although there is nothing like the feeling of ejaculating, I found it a little underwhelming after experiencing multiple orgasms using the Aneros. I know my mood will improve again but, I miss that happy go lucky feeling just now. On the plus side, I am wondering (hoping) whether achieving multiple orgasms with the Aneros is somehow transferred over to penis based orgasms, I definitely had a sense of a second one being possible. I don’t think I will do 21days again for a while, probably just go with the flow, as it were.