Still trying but getting closer

Well had a few good sessions today. I've been using the progasm in backwards. I normally start with it in the normal position and it makes good contact with my prostate but I think when things get feeling very good my PC muscles clamp down on their own pretty well and the pressure on my prostate can be a little much. If I put it in backwards the curved part still contacts my prostate pretty well and the K-tab which is a little higher digs in a little deeper into my perenium. Anyway, I was pretty relaxed, I start with just a slight contraction and after a few minutes the PC muslces start quivering, I guess that's what involuntaries are. After awhile it just sort of does it on it's own. I start feeling waves of pleasure that build up and then subside. It seems like each time I try they build up a little more. Today I reached a new level that I guess I could describe as an orgasm. I still don't think it's a super O because even at the peak of the feeling I still feel short twinges of even better feelings but they don't last. That makes me think there is more to come. I also get a lot of involuntary contraction of my lower abdomen and pelvic muscles that give me a partial pelvic tilt. I'm trying to keep them relaxed as much as possible but it's mostly involuntary. so, how close am I? I'm staying relaxed and waiting for the feeling to come to me, it's hard not to have that goal in mind because It's true, that's the goal. But I know not to chase the feeling. I've been trying for about 3 months now. Started with the MGX and Max but switched to the progasm for better prostate contact. Will try again in a few days.