Raising the bar

So, I have had session after session that just keep creeping up and up on the overall pleasure scale. I've also noticed little things happening that seemed to me that I was really progressing - and I say that after having many incredible, just amazing sessions. I find i can get into the zone more quickly, and keep myself there longer.  And the control i have with the eupho seems to be simply precise.  And then last night came along. 

I preface this with my sessions are usually late/early with people in the house.  Lately i have been getting day long blocks of alone time and this has seemed to help me as it allows myself to take the pillow off of my face and really try to let go.

After my usual prep (I have found the perfect combination of thc for me), i decided to start a-less. I had gotten away from this as I found inserting earlier in the session let me achieve higher highs vs waiting and inserting sometime later.  My prostate had other plans in mind tonight though. I quickly found myself in the thick of things having super pleasurable wave after wave.  My initial reaction is to call them orgasms and they probably are. But as is so often the case, things just kept on going higher.  And higher. 

At some point in my best sessions (and likely in many of yours as well), my mind and body essentially begin to float, and I can really let go and just let everything wash over me. Magical things usually start to happen and something as minor as the sheet rubbing my body as I breathe begins to causes waves to shoot through all parts of me. In some ways I can begin to steer my way through everything, directing what's happening in my mind and body, essentially pushing myself higher still. Last night was like this on a completely different level. I was more or less in control and if I found myself drifting away from it, I only had to focus a little more to get back there. And it was as though I could navigate through a number of different scenarios, and just jump right in. Pick a partner and suddenly they were there and i could feel them against me.  At one point I was thrusting into someone experiencing every bit of the pleasure of it while simultaneously being thrust into from behind while my prostate just went off on its own,  showering me with feelings I can't even quantify. And in an instant I could switch gears and be in another situation, never skipping a beat.  I really don't know how long I was at this level. I was coming down some only to realize I was still on some crazy high plateau. I do know eventually I was drifting in and out of sleep/orgasms and 4 hours had past.  The whole time being able to mentally jump into it at will. My first thought even while still in the midst of it was lucid dreaming.  I can't overstate the level i felt i was at,  and the control i had. I mean at one point, I remember trying to lower my head down and licking myself.  Before I knew it,  I was fully deepthroating myself, feeling myself in my throat, and affecting me both as giver and receiver. Am I mad?? Somehow I feel like I am not alone.

My fear (kind of but not really), is losing control vocally, forcing my sessions to be only when I am truly alone. 

Anyway,  I once again ask myself,  how high can this go? It really, really is a crazy journey.