Greetings everybody,
I've been on the journey for a few years, and while I'm rewired and enjoy my solo anal play immensely, I've never had super-o. That's fine, no hurry.
My best results come when I vape some weed in conjunction with my sessions, and lately my favorite has been an indica strain that gives me a really sweet body high. So here is the issue for me:
The times when I get really excited and things start building up, my heart rate goes up a lot as well, more if I vape weed. The other day I was, from my own estimation, on the absolute verge of surrendering to a full-on body orgasm. It just snuck up on me when I was in an extremely relaxed state just enjoying my existence and listening to binaural beats. I just let it happen and it kept building, but my heart also started pounding like a jackhammer and I started worrying, effectively cancelling onsetting bliss.
So, I'm 43 and quite fit. I work out, go to spinning classes regularly and I would consider my cardio to be rather good. My natural heart rate is somewhat high and my pulse can hit the 220' during intensive bursts of spinning. My father is a retired cardiologist and he's never raised and warning flags throughout the years of keeping tabs on myself and the rest of my family. However, I can't relax properly with my heart pounding away like this, because it frightens me - a lot. Reaching the ultimate results and rewards in this field absolutely requires your mind to relax and for you to go with the flow, but I cannot do this due to the aforementioned problem.
TL;Dr - I enjoy vaping weed before and a bit during anal play seassions, my heart rate goes up a lot and my heart feels like a jackhammer in there. I'm definitely rewired but can't allow myself to relax due to my heart going off during times of high arousal and being on the verge of entering absolute bliss. I'm in good shape physically.
I would appreciate any feedback on this, people, as this journey is one of the coolest things I've had the pleasure of being a part of, and if there is good reason for me to stop worrying, I'd love to hear it. And, of course, let me know if you think I'm on thin ice too.
Thanks for reading!
I had the same problem, I just got very anxious to have time to myself and enjoy Aneros play. Latter I started meditation and do 15 to 20 minutes everyday. When you keep meditating regularly I feel more calm and I can now carry my calmness in my daily life and my sex life, I can enjoy the feelings, just surrender myself to the pleasures and I go in for a hell of a ride. My heart does start to go up, but not as bad as before I use to get cold and shake when I first started to feel p waves. Now its like having an orgasm and over. Then I reach the super O. Doesn't happen every session but when it does I just let go, moan shake, scream, it becomes something out of this world
I also hit the vape pen I smoke it till I get very stoned and then insert the aneros that way makes all the nerves tickle when inserting it. Makes the p waves hit faster
Of course, nobody would like to say it's fine in case it isn't! And nobody knows you like you. How does it feel? Like a good thing or a bad thing? Or let's put it another way, if you were to make a conscious decision to increase intensity and this coincided with a rise in heart rate, forgetting what you know or don't know about cardiology, would it be pleasurable or uncomfortable? The whole point is to leave the ego, the logic, the grounding, the conditioning, the beliefs ... and enter a world where you can experience who you really are without all this stuff. Somehow you have to figure out if this fear is real or imagined and nobody here can do the work for you - the answers are in you and you alone. I'm asking myself similar questions at the moment and answering you is answering myself also ... Peace and love
Greetings everybody,
Reaching the ultimate results and rewards in this field absolutely requires your mind to relax and for you to go with the flow, but I cannot do this due to the aforementioned problem.
Yes it does, but it also takes getting on board and being seriously fucking horny to make it happen. That's the paradox - you have to be something and nothing, poised between effort and relaxation. This isn't going to just 'happen to you'. It's not going to take over you till the very last second, so much so you need to forget about that altogether and really give being totally and honestly erotic with yourself a go. Delve in to your kinks and revel in them unashamedly - only when you're completely lost in the throws of your own (often forbidden or repressed) sexuality will you suddenly be pulled over the edge by a single emotion. When something really gets you - a thought or a memory of a smell or the feel of something or whatever and you feel that momentary spike of arousal, go back and find it again. Go back a dozen times till you know that feeling. Own that feeling. Really practice knowing, owning, identifying and feeling that feeling until it becomes easier to recall. When you can hold it till even more heightened erotic feelings come to you, bask and revel in them too. Allow the momentum to build and build - it's not about relaxing, it's about allowing. Only when you decide you're worthy of this and actively engage honestly at your most arousing facets will you allow the door to open and the magic to flow through.