Pain Discomfort After Ejaculating "What Have I Done Now"?

Hi everybody i have not used the aneros in one month and 12 days because i have made
the silly mistake of being to vigorous which is never going to be repeated ever again provided
i have not stuffed the prostate completely which i am a bot worried about.

Well what happened was about a month and a week and a half a go i was using the progasm ice
and i decided to lie on my stomach and i started to push the head of progasm ice down a bit harder
onto the prostate because it felt fuller using my hips and after it was quiet sore i was pushing hard
but i dont think it was extremely or very hard, at the end of this month it was starting to feel better
like it hard almost gone then i started masturabting normally without the aneros and i have felt
some discomfort and mild pain when ejaculating, after the first time i did this i had some pain
which was a bit over mild and lasted two days, now it has calmed down a bit but i still feel a little
bit of pain and some discomfort when ejaculating. What could be causing this pain i have been doing
a fair bit of research using google, and i have heard the prostate is made of glandular tissue soft like
liver and will easily tear, so my fear is i have caused tearing of the delicate prostate which has made
think "Oh shit what have i done" Is it possible that i have completely ruined the prostate for good?

And also will this leave scarring when it heals? The pain discomfort is on the top left hand side of the
prostate and on the bottom right hand side of the prostate, i have decided i am never going to perform
rigorous prostate massage ever again that if it is not too late already i have already unjured the prostate
before about two years a go when i used a womans curved g spot massager to massage my prostate
which resulted in the same kind of thing but less severe and it took like two and a half months to completely heal so i hope i have not aggrivated a pre existing injury. One is enough Twice is enough
i got a second chance so i hope i have not blown also note i was note manually pushing the head
of the massager into the prostate with my hand, i would advise people to take note of what i have done and not end up in my position otherwise you may end up with a half runined prostate i hope that is not my case already.

I am thinking about throwing out the two progasm models i own, the progasm ice, and a blue progasm models just incase this happens again which i trust it wont, so the i am going to wait until the end of this month and if things are not better by then i will assume it's game over and will have to give up being an anerosian so i hope it doesnt come to this and things get better, and i hope there is no scarring of the prostate.

Anyway i wish i had some more positive news to add but when you are stupid like me bad things happen
and its like pulling the handle of a boiling hot pot down on yourself off the stove.

Take care everyone.

Have a great day take care thecritta