Need help understanding my sensesations. Tingiling in penis is missing.

In my experience, the more I want a particular sensation, the less often it comes. So, simply trying your best to forget about it might woo its return more readily. Or It could have been ur ‘beginner mindset’ that had u doing something different back then. Maybe approaching ur next session likewise might help. Like it’s ur first time.

in this whole adventure, things come and go with an overall upward path. I had intense buzzing in the beginning, then it became a rarity, only recently has it come back and that was through imagination and awareness 

U can try using ur mind by placing ur awareness there and imagining those sensations are happening. That works more often outside of sessions though

one last thing I’ve noticed: in the beginning I was worried over the sensations, too, and that worry seemed to amplify them and make them far more persistent. As I grew more comfortable, things calmed way down. Even now, when I worry over them about losing sleep, they get louder and persistent, and when I accept them, they tone down. Not that this might help u get what u’r looking for, but that it seems counterintuitive when we’re advised that calm and tranquility is what’s needed.

Posted by: @kahless

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Or It could have been ur ‘beginner mindset’ that had u doing something different back then.

This is definitely a known phenomenon. I reckon we default to thinking we know what we did, and have an imagination of "how". But there are so many variables, maybe it was a variable we weren't even aware of, that is now getting stepped on in some unknown way. Reaching for the shortest path to our desired sensations might seem like it's working a little bit, because we feel closer, so it seems like it's working, but it's not actually how we got there before.
The brain seeks to optimize, but this can be a trap so insidious that's it's hard to think your way out of. Like if doing some kind of clench gets me to 50% of that sensation, then surely the solution is to clench twice that amount?! Or something like rubbing my nipples twice as hard, because a feather-touch works a little bit... that one is obvious, but there are an unknown amount of things just like that, which aren't obvious at all, or even obvious that we're doing in the first place.

Even if you want to let go of expectations, habits, and unintentional optimizations, there's a lot that's hard to be even aware of. I'd recommend reading Clenchy's classic post active relaxation and see if there's anything different you can notice. I think it's a good mindset to experiment with, that mimics certain aspects of the newbie's mindset.

@kahless @clenchy I guess I had this feeling as long as I remember doing anal play maybe 13 years ago.

And it seems it stopped after this event two years ago when maybe I strained it too much with a toy and had this mini awakening.

I've read on forums before that some people lost sensation in the frenulum due to excessive pressure on the prostate and thought of something similar happening to me, or maybe my brain just blocks it out.

But I think of it as not something abstract. I expect sensation to be the same as when you rub your fingers around the frenulum and feel pleasure because you still stimulate the nerve in the prostate with a toy or massager.

It doesn't worry me but I'm missing it. Maybe it is my misconception

@astronaut

One thing I can add is try not to overthink it. The mind is incredible, but it can send ppl into a spiral of confusion and discouragement when trying to figure out why certain things did or don’t happen, especially something as seemingly ephemeral and powerful as mmos and with all kinds of ‘seeding thoughts’ like damaging prostate and kundalini syndrome that prime the mind pump to interrupt happenings in one way or another. And once their minds latches onto an explanation, whether it’s true or not, it tends to dominate their thinking and cloud future sessions.

anyone who’s had challenges with anxiety, for example, knows how tricky and false the mind can be, tossing up all kind of ideas for such small happenings that then stick

*chokes on water*
mind: it’s the end!

I believe it’s more effective to take each session as independent from the others, an exploration of new lands, sometimes lush forests, sometimes arid deserts, and most of all, to avoid as best a able, the need to figure it out. And one might find themselves back to familiar surroundings. It’s tough tho when the desire becomes great!

hope that helps 🙂