Learned something new today...I broke a rule

Good Evening,

This post may be lengthy so apologies in advance.

Aneros User - 6 years

Super O's - 0

Dry O's - .0004

Wet O's with or without Aneros - If I had a dollar for each time I would have retired years ago a very wealthy man.

P Waves - Plenty

A bit of a backstory.  So, my entire life, I have been plagued with a condition some guys might wish for.  I can literally screw my wife all night long without me having a single orgasm.  Nearly every wet orgasm is something I have to concentrate on to actually achieve. It sucks to have to "try" to have an orgasm.  While I may be super turned on...the problem still exists.  Some may say it is because I masturbate too much.  Maybe in my earlier years, three times a week or so was my max.  Now, it's maybe once a week to once every two weeks (prior to the six years playing with the aneros).  Now I TRY to practice semen retention as much as possible.  My max days has been 19 (yes, I almost achieved the 21-day challenge).  The only reason I did was because my wife grew tired of me "holding out"...

Fast forward to the aneros years.  I've never climbed the abyss island of pleasure.  It is not something I strive to achieve.  It has always been, hey if it feels good just go with it.  If the session is a dud, stop without frustration, and move on.

For the past year or so I have tried to practice the ALESS technique.  I have had some pretty interesting results.  The pleasure I get is good, not great, but it is better than nothing.  ALESS sessions give me a diamond cutter erection which will eventually fade but usually comes back.  I really don't expend a lot of energy during these sessions.  I let my body do whatever it feels like.  I've noticed when the erection happens I feel like I'm about to explode.  Again, which is great.  Although that feeling fades eventually until the next erection.  I'm not expecting to expload it is just the feeling I get.  

What I have found interesting about all of this is whether I am doing ALESS or an Aneros session, the first thirty minutes are incredible.  I love the feel and let myself go into them. I relax every part of my body.  The only part that does not relax is my anus.  Sort of like it is holding on for dear life, which puts a great amount of pressure on my prostate "region".  This leads to great feelings and some pwaves.  Eventually, I do indeed get the "involuntaries".  But after 45 minutes I have an uncomfortable bladder situation and pee like Niagra Falls (the bladder is emptied twice prior to any session). 

This leads me to my point.  Today, I had an aneros session (finally, alone time!).  All the above happened in the order I presented above.  But I broke my golden rule of touching my dick.  But not with my hand!  I took one of my wife's vibrators and lightly placed it on the head of my dick.  After about five minutes I notice "needles" running down my legs.  Sort of like chills, but in a good way.  I could feel something building and then...BOOM...those "chills/needles" enveloped my entire body for about five seconds.  It was incredible!  Finally, something!  But I had broken my rule!  I thought about it afterward and I have decided...who cares!  The end game is to feel good!  I achieved a great feeling without giving myself a "handy" (For which I'm exhausted afterward because I have to try so hard to have an old fashion orgasm).

While I'm not seeking advice.  I would like to know if any other guys out in the aneros land, have the same problem I do with traditional orgasms?  And I wonder if because of this the six-year progression is so slow?  Again, I am so very thankful for the feelings I have gotten, I don't get frustrated, I usually get some type of enjoyment from each session.  To me, I feel like I learn something new each time.  I may never get any further than where I'm at now...and I'm okay with that.  The joy from having "something" is better than nothing at all. 

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