Journey so far and looking for feedback

Hi all,

so for last three years my wife and i live in seperate cities. lots of tie to explore my sexuality, alone...

started out with estim, but although fun, felt a bit mechanical. but the estim forums lead me to Aneros mods by stimmers and my curiosity was twweaked, but they cost a lot...

I bought a cheap knock off anal toy (i know, but i wasnt sure i would get anything out of this process...) i actually had quite a lot of success, with this, taking things slow relaxin, breathing trying to set up involuntaries from alternating slight muscle contractions, it worked very well and after a few sessions had what I thought was a stonking dry orgasm, but I had actually emittied a lot of semen. AFter this I kept experimenting and had one fantastic orgasm on the side where i had quit e a few convulsions and a wet orgasm with a flacid cock ( no ejaculation) i found all of this very erotic, but it kind of stagnated from there.

My prostate was definitely awakening and I was aware of it much more, would even have occasional "spasms" at odd times of day as it was somehow jolted into action.

I would have nice sessions, but i would start to have similar endings, feeling quite overstimulated and with large involuntary contractions that ended up with a quite mechanical milking that resulted in small amounts of emitted semen. After A while I tossed the toy and took a break.

reading the forums lead me to take a pnt on the helix classic severela months later. it was a very different beast, slid in easily and caressed rather than thumped my prostate. I learnt more elaborate breathing and nipple tweaking routines that heightended my stimulation (lots of trial and error) and was able to focus on caressing the prostate with very small movements ( I'll come back to this later) circling the prostate and waiting for invlountaries. It was all very enjoyable, but still not awesome and I was still getting what I would describe as over stimulated after a while and getting forceful contractions "squeezing" in on the prostate and resulting in emissions, but not hugely pleasant ones.

SO i laid off for a whie again and ordered a progasm jr a few months later.

Here i met with real success quite rapidly. It arrived just before a short , but distant mission, I arrived back jet lagged and ready for an afternoon nap. I inserted the progasm Jr. and enjoyable experience in itself and then had a hot bath, the idea being I would be competelty relaxed already wtih progasm in and not distracted by procvess of insertion and then having to find a relaxed state again. In the bath I did absolutely nothjing and the more neutral boyancy means you dont even really feel it in there (of course its still rpessing on your prostate and moving as you breath) I got out of the bath, lay on my back with knees up and tried to ignore the progasm entirely, just breathed. Except after 2 minutes it didnt work like that, i could feel my prostate literally buzzing and the progasm was doing a tiny little dance in and out, this kept up for quite sometime until my breathing accelerated rapidly and my body when quite rigid. This went on for what seeed like ten minutes and when I dropped out of it I realised thats exactly what an orgasm feels like except you always go over the peak so quickly with ejaculation that "orgasmic state" as I thought of it lying there is not very well "identified" by the brain. well I think I know what it is now!

I was able to replicate this session once more before I started to expect it to happen, and forced things along. I was slipping back into the old ways.

Then I read someones post (sorry cnat remember who) talking about reverse kegels, tweaking the penis head and alternately nipples, without aneros? I tried this one night and was able to have an emission/orgasm, i used to intersperse this with aneros sessions, but I wasnt getting great results.

Three weeks ago I decided to have aless sessions lying in bed just relaxing and breathing and tweaking the nipples. I was able to focus my energy and my prostate woke up, It took a few sessions to try and idntify how to move that energy around to "pulse" over the prostate (seems to be related to blood pulsing) and also pushing it over and off prostate before circling it back.

This was quite a revelation (notably as it is more gentle on my back, which I have a lot of troubles with), so when I feel like i need to relax I have continued this process. I tried inserting the progasm after I had got as far as I could with this process in terms of excitement, but it was a complete bust. What I have been working on in the last 2 weeks is when my ecitement mounts, the energy and buzzing/tingly seems to pull up and into the body and I lose it. However, last night i cracked it.

I have been trying to alternate breathing and flicking the nipple, but last night I just went for it and it was like a direct link to the prostate, I had to focus very hard on the prostate not to "lose" it as the excitement mounts, but with constant rapid flicking of the nipple I reached another of what I would call orgasmic states. It was amazing, then I eased off relaxed a bit, and start breating and like 15 seconds I could feel that I could bring it on again, so I did! This went on for 4 or five orgasmic periods a real eye opener for a one shot ejaculation guy. At about the fifth orgasm i felt a little bit the squeezing out of semen I had it the past, but very enjoyable. AFter coming downa bit I adjusted my flaccid tiny cock (as all the blood seems to be drawn to perenium area and prostate) and discovered what felt like litres of semen down there, it had clearly been ozzing out form early on.

I'm really quite hooked 😉 A couple of questions though? does this qualify as a classic super O or not? its pretty super as far as I am concerned but is it more male multiple orgasm? I dont really care either way, but would be nice to know.

Oh and my prostate is throbbing as I type this, clearly it remembers last night.

A good journey to you all.

M