How I'm feeling...

Hi.
I'm sorry if this seems a little overblown,or pointless, or both. But here's how I feel a few weeks into finding prostate play and this forum.

Say that my body is a house I've been living in. I try to keep it nice, but I'm often guilty of taking it for granted,even hating it. I don't like how I look - especially my chest and nipples which I find puffy and embarrassing. I'm ginger, pale - and as a kid got grief about this. BUT I also know that I should be grateful to be alive and able bodied - to have 'a house' at all. Too many people I've loved have died young or had debilitating shit happen to them. I've tried to think less about aesthetics and more about being grateful for what my body can do - marathons etc.

Anyway. This house. It ain't the biggest or most luxurious house. No sea views, no huge kitchen. BUT...I feel like you guys have whispered in my ear that there is a cellar in the house that I hardly knew was there. Or if I did, it was dark and kinda gross and not some where I wanted to spend any time. But now I've had a peep in the cellar I can see that there's a whole floor here I never knew was here. An amazing library of new fiction, unread. Crates of malt whiskey,untasted. And it's in my house - free to use. It's like I've unlocked a new level to my own home - and I just want to thank you for telling me it was there.