Found the super-o and lost it. Help me find it again.

Hi all

I am looking for some well needed advice.

However let me first introduce my experience with aneros. I discovered aneros quite early in my life and currently have over 12 years of experience with it. With major ups and down. Of which the latter is currently present.

I have always had a hard time relaxing. I’m quite stress sensitive and impatient. Not a great combintion when looking for a prostate orgasm. However I did find a way to achieve the super-o in my younger years, and this was simply using weed. When using an edible after around a hour I would become fully relaxed and after insertion almost instant orgasms were present. I have had body-shaking sessions of up to 4 hours trying not to screem. Honestly the best physical feeling that I have experience by far.

Every session was a massive hit untill I accidentally overdosed on the weed. I got extremely anxious, paranoid and even thinking I would die at that altered mindstate. When I felt an hour has passed, only 5 minutes did and I had to endure that for a couple hours. Not something I would like to repeat again. After like 6-12 months of non-weed i tried it again and after a few decent sessions (with very little weed), eventually I got a bit to much again and had a bad sessions again.

Now many years later I am trying to find this holy grail of the super-o again but am unable to. Nowadays even a little weed gets me in paranoid panic mode and will not allow a good sessions. I tried using nothing and those sessions are okayish, but even p-waves are hard to get for me. I also tried damiana/cbd but this did not do much.

I have used many different toys in the past. But aneros seems still the best for my goal. However I am looking for advice to continue. Currently I am very inactive with aneros, maybe 1 sessions every month max. Also my mental state is not the best last year(s) which probably does not help.

Some of the things I am looking at:

• Using the Aneros more often. At least once a week to awaken it more. However I do not expect major results as it did not in the past.
• Using into other relaxing substances that do relax you but do not induce anxiety. I am only talking about legal stuff here that is not to potent. Like damiana and CBD which I tried already. I expect the most results from this. Quite a bit is legal where I live.
• Looking into other types of toys. Kinda intrigued by estim, but also slightly afraid of the potential dangers. Also will get the new Aneros psy. These are just a nice addition but not necessarily for the super-o I reckon.

Also an additional question. The last few sessions I noticed (after heavy stimulation) that my semen got very chunky & sticky. This only happens after heavy stimulation. Anyone else familiar with this?

Looking forward to all your advice. Anything is helpful!